I bet you're hard to get over, I bet the moon just won't shine

[words_of_shadow]

so, i finally understand the feeling of all the girls who end up as the last 2 girls on the flavor of love (except that they want a hideously deformed man). i haven't heard from matt in the last 3 days, and i hate it. i know im gonna have to deal with it, and accept some things, but we've both been leading each other on like crazy, and when i don't hear from him i break......and when i do hear from him, its the height of my day, even though we may talk about sad things. i have to admit, when he says "i love you", its both comforting and shattering......but i want to hear it anyway...........

and i finally have an idea for a post secret card that i can send in.....seeing as i don't have many secrets at all........which kinda makes me depressed, but then glad that i have people that i can fully trust.........but w/e, when i get the time, im gonna work on the postcard........gotta pull my creative-genius out to work.

and im sorry for the string of sad/anxious posts.......i know no one wants to hear it, but it feels good to type it out.......

?-_o
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