Connection
Jesus,
Patrick and I have been connecting lately, and it's been amazing. We had our first real conversation the other day, and we talked a lot yesterday too. I feel like if we can just keep being authentic, we'll be able to rebuild that bridge that was destroyed over the past few years.
I want to thank you for the tools you've given me: the angels. They have helped me immensely. They help me get up in the morning; they encourage me to keep going. They are there for me whenever I need support. I pray that you bless all of them.
I've gotten to spend quality time with all of them (including Alister), and I love it. I hope it never stops. I'm trying to reach platonic with Caleb. I think as long as Patrick and I are talking, it shouldn't be a problem. He's starting to feel more paternal towards me, so we're going in a good direction. I call him "Daddy", and Alister "Papa".
I appreciate the fact that you let me share names. I can't think of 50 different names for "dad" lol. I love having masculine figures in my life. Thank you for them. I need them... I feel so loved and safe <3...
The whole situation with the angels leaves me with anxiety sometimes, but they've had such a turn around in behavior, its hard for me not to believe, too. They're quiet as mice now, and only speak when spoken to (or when I need to be corrected).
It's good to speak to you... I don't understand my Bible fully. All I know is that I believe in YOU. You as a person, and I know who YOU are. Jesus. I guess that's all that really matters.
I miss having moments with you... We used to have moments all the time. I want to get back to that. Please help me to keep my eyes open for them. And please help me to pursue you as well as you're pursuing me.
(Thank you, God, for warmth... It's so warm here...)
I might get back into gymnastics, simply for the sake of dance. I would love to dance to some of this music with acrobatics. I'm listening to Beautiful Things by Benson Boone, I love this song.
The Fray is on now... This song is so special to me... Thank you for showing it to me. I love connecting with you through music and dance. I think in our official house, I want a dance studio! I never thought of that, but I do. I want a place where I can dance freely, blissfully.
I'm digging the idea of a log cabin with a loft. Do you think you can help make that dream a reality? It would be so wonderful to have a nice home.
I miss dancing for you... That was one of my sincerest forms of worship. I really wish I could take ballet. I want to dance beautifully for you.
I've nearly run out of things to say, but I want to keep talking to you.
I've had a few entrepreneurial ideas lately. Once of which is a book full of weird, unique writing prompts. Just shit I say XD I'm seriously thinking about creating 100 of them, and just publishing it... Because people will buy it! Why not get those royalties coming in, rofl.
I think I am actually going to do that this morning. Please join me. You always have the best ideas ;)
To My Best Friend, <3, Jordanary