Cale
Jay,
I'm really struggling with thoughts about Cale... I know I am supposed to release him to you, but its a real challenge. I think about him a lot. I think about meeting him in heaven. I think about sex with him. I just... think about him.
I know I need to be focused on Patrick right now. And Cale technically isn't a threat right now... but he is a distraction. Please help me to focus on Patrick today, and the next, and the next. I'd be a fool for letting Patrick go. I love him very much... He's such a good man...
To My Confidant, <3, Jordanary