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I fucking give up.
Just about everyone blows ass minus a few good friends.
I definitely woke up from a ridiculously drunk shitty Saturday night in the Kroger parking lot on Ponce with all the windows down. Hahahaha.
EXCELLENT.
I hate being that drunk.
And secondly, I hate being that drunk and everything going completely awful anyways.
I realized last night/ this morning how lonely I am.
I really hate feeling like this.
And it doesn't help that all the plans I've been making that have been keeping me afloat are falling through.
Coming to the realization you were the only one serious about something sucks.
God I'm in an awful mood.
I honestly don't know how to shake feeling like this. It's such a vulnerable feeling, even though I haven't actually put myself out there with anything since Christmas. All in an attempt to NOT feel like this. But it happened anyways.
I'm not one to make shit up in my head and read too far into things, but I feel like that's exactly what I did somehow. Maybe not. I'm so confused. I have no idea what's going on with anything anymore. I feel disappointed and sad.
I'm going back to bed, and when I wake up, it better be a much better day.
Just about everyone blows ass minus a few good friends.
I definitely woke up from a ridiculously drunk shitty Saturday night in the Kroger parking lot on Ponce with all the windows down. Hahahaha.
EXCELLENT.
I hate being that drunk.
And secondly, I hate being that drunk and everything going completely awful anyways.
I realized last night/ this morning how lonely I am.
I really hate feeling like this.
And it doesn't help that all the plans I've been making that have been keeping me afloat are falling through.
Coming to the realization you were the only one serious about something sucks.
God I'm in an awful mood.
I honestly don't know how to shake feeling like this. It's such a vulnerable feeling, even though I haven't actually put myself out there with anything since Christmas. All in an attempt to NOT feel like this. But it happened anyways.
I'm not one to make shit up in my head and read too far into things, but I feel like that's exactly what I did somehow. Maybe not. I'm so confused. I have no idea what's going on with anything anymore. I feel disappointed and sad.
I'm going back to bed, and when I wake up, it better be a much better day.