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I woke up after a kind of slightly fucked up night last night. and the only thing plaguing my mind was the fact that my generation, or at least pretty much EVERYONE i know, is completely desensitized and jaded. NO ONE i know is looking for a special someone anymore. and people who HAVE a special someone.. cheat on them. or are in love with someone else but for some reason every party is too stubborn or prideful to let it work out the way "it should."
no one is willing to commit. no one is willing to budge or compromise or give up anything for love anymore.
having been "single" for a year now, (and i use the term loosely because i've dated quite a bit in that time) i'm tired of what i keep getting and seeing others get. a drink at the bar. maybe a dance. hookup outside. and then maybe after that, they call and you hang out with their boys at some house getting fucked up and watching horror films. so on and so forth until one or both of you moves on. either that or you've known the person and things get heated. but then cool off. and sometimes it heats back up to only cool down. and you've got yourself a torturous pattern. its a usual occurance for everyone i know. its almost like we're all logs going down a river, just bumping into one another. no one is really choosing anything or anyone anymore.
now, i am not COMPLETELY complaining about this. because, casual dating is a lot of fun. it is. it's almost like we're all trying each other on until something fits just like it was made for you. and while in this search we accumulate experience... and baggage. maybe this is just part of being in your 20s? but sometimes i wonder when the 'dinner and a movie' date died. what happened to romance? what happened to chivalry? and what happened to respect and connections and being enamored with that one person that seems to not only finish your sentences, but finishes and fills where you lack? someone that completes you. meeting someone and wanting to take it as far as possible. the better half. does anyone believe in that anymore? or are we all just too wounded and scared to ever believe in what we believed when we were young?
of course they still believe in it. they have to. or maybe i am just incredibly idealistic in comparison to the people i know. hell, most of my friends and family members seem to boast, turn their nose in disgust, and shout, "i'm never getting married!" like its a plague or something. like its death. like its impenetrable doom.
but. i also know those same exact people go home and in their beds they are lonely. and in their lives they are lonely. we all want companionship. we all want to be loved and wanted.
and with that said. i am taking back going with my generation on this. i am pivoting, turning around and calling this a 180. because i may be idealistic, but i want to have a special someone. and i hope everyone else can start to admit that maybe that's what they want or need, too. maybe we can have the guts to be honest with one another. stop playing games, and maybe get things to ACTUALLY work out. fate doesn't do all the work. you do. and you make the choices and you control your life. and if you want more from someone, if you feel something for someone go ahead and say it. and don't wonder what to do. we all know what to do. we all know what woos people and what to say and not to say and how to treat each other. try and find that hope you had when you were younger, and apply it to your adult life. embrace romance, don't question it and everyone, stop settling for less. so, i guess i'm just saying let's all try and work it out or we're all going to end up dead and alone, or with lots of babymama's and daddies.
no one is willing to commit. no one is willing to budge or compromise or give up anything for love anymore.
having been "single" for a year now, (and i use the term loosely because i've dated quite a bit in that time) i'm tired of what i keep getting and seeing others get. a drink at the bar. maybe a dance. hookup outside. and then maybe after that, they call and you hang out with their boys at some house getting fucked up and watching horror films. so on and so forth until one or both of you moves on. either that or you've known the person and things get heated. but then cool off. and sometimes it heats back up to only cool down. and you've got yourself a torturous pattern. its a usual occurance for everyone i know. its almost like we're all logs going down a river, just bumping into one another. no one is really choosing anything or anyone anymore.
now, i am not COMPLETELY complaining about this. because, casual dating is a lot of fun. it is. it's almost like we're all trying each other on until something fits just like it was made for you. and while in this search we accumulate experience... and baggage. maybe this is just part of being in your 20s? but sometimes i wonder when the 'dinner and a movie' date died. what happened to romance? what happened to chivalry? and what happened to respect and connections and being enamored with that one person that seems to not only finish your sentences, but finishes and fills where you lack? someone that completes you. meeting someone and wanting to take it as far as possible. the better half. does anyone believe in that anymore? or are we all just too wounded and scared to ever believe in what we believed when we were young?
of course they still believe in it. they have to. or maybe i am just incredibly idealistic in comparison to the people i know. hell, most of my friends and family members seem to boast, turn their nose in disgust, and shout, "i'm never getting married!" like its a plague or something. like its death. like its impenetrable doom.
but. i also know those same exact people go home and in their beds they are lonely. and in their lives they are lonely. we all want companionship. we all want to be loved and wanted.
and with that said. i am taking back going with my generation on this. i am pivoting, turning around and calling this a 180. because i may be idealistic, but i want to have a special someone. and i hope everyone else can start to admit that maybe that's what they want or need, too. maybe we can have the guts to be honest with one another. stop playing games, and maybe get things to ACTUALLY work out. fate doesn't do all the work. you do. and you make the choices and you control your life. and if you want more from someone, if you feel something for someone go ahead and say it. and don't wonder what to do. we all know what to do. we all know what woos people and what to say and not to say and how to treat each other. try and find that hope you had when you were younger, and apply it to your adult life. embrace romance, don't question it and everyone, stop settling for less. so, i guess i'm just saying let's all try and work it out or we're all going to end up dead and alone, or with lots of babymama's and daddies.