what a beat bowl
the epic continues, trajcially without a happy ending, entho they are cleshe`. it's so muggy out that the haze is thick enough to block out the stars for the night - the air just seems so much heavier. i fell upon a spell of good luck for a moment, and instantaiously everything that was good, went to horriable within any type of contact with bliss. my endevors linger shortly off of every intention i mirror, for i've build myself a castel with walls far taller than i shall ever be. Watching it tumble was demeaning- but the look in your squinted eyes makes me want to do it all over again. i wait and wait- just to find him... i just wish i had a hint to what i am looking for. so until then alone i stay, wishing just for that bright sunny day when i actually have someone to write about, or for. for some reason i can't stop singing John Mayer in my head while i type this out. it's still early, and i'm quiet bored.... damn thoes misquitoes. i guess i'll pack it again, watch the smoke disapear and alone i shall be.
that wasnt meant to be morbid, i just wish i had a playmate.... not like s sexual playmate, but someone to smoke with, someone to laugh at, someone to cook for me, someone to kiss... maybe just someone to talk to would do for now! i guess i really am that bad - i sound like a desperate fool, so with this i will go.
damnit i spilled my pot- goodnight- and thank god this weekend is over.
and back to maine he goes, 4 whole days with utter carelessness - Yes! i'm goin to canada on saturday and fuckin getting wasted legally for the first time. kinda sucks i waited a year to do this, now that i'm almost 20.... i'm such a lazy procrastonator. time to repack, and go llisten to loud music. *sigh* it takes like less than little to nothing to make me happy... blah, damnit for being so lonely. :(
that wasnt meant to be morbid, i just wish i had a playmate.... not like s sexual playmate, but someone to smoke with, someone to laugh at, someone to cook for me, someone to kiss... maybe just someone to talk to would do for now! i guess i really am that bad - i sound like a desperate fool, so with this i will go.
damnit i spilled my pot- goodnight- and thank god this weekend is over.
and back to maine he goes, 4 whole days with utter carelessness - Yes! i'm goin to canada on saturday and fuckin getting wasted legally for the first time. kinda sucks i waited a year to do this, now that i'm almost 20.... i'm such a lazy procrastonator. time to repack, and go llisten to loud music. *sigh* it takes like less than little to nothing to make me happy... blah, damnit for being so lonely. :(