it's snowing...
so how is everyone?
there's not too much going on lately. today was my last day of work for a week. :) yay.
this week has been rough. i hate fighting, but there comes a time when you have to face reality and deal with it. so i dealt with it. it wasn't easy, or what i really wanted to do, but i did it. i'm quite proud of myself to. i have to say that i feel better.
i can't believe it's already april. the time is flying by. i don't like it. when i first thought about it, prom was 3 months away. now, it's a month and a half away. there's one person that i really want to go with. up until now, i've never really been shy around said person. i have to admit right now that i'm deathly afraid to ask him to go with me. i feel like i'm 10 years old again. i shouldn't be scared. i have no reason to be scared. no matter how many times i tell myself that, i can't seem to ask him. i know for a fact that i would have fun. i think i'm just afraid of scaring him. prom is a special event. i want to go with someone special. he may not even want to go with me, but you never know until you ask. i wish i could just overcome this stupid fear and ask him before it's too late.
i feel so childish. ahh. wouldn't it be wonderful if he had his own idea and would just ask me? too bad this isn't fairy land. :/
jayme amazed me the other day. we were driving around, and suddenly he got really quiet. he then gave me a speech about his opinions of my life. i was expecting him to tell me something crazy and upset me. he said some things that really proved to me that he does care about me and wants me to be happy.
i know that i've done some really dumb things in the past, especially this year. however, i have absolutely no regrets. in order to learn, you have to live. each and everything i have done, has served a purpose. i gained something from each experience whether it was good or bad. you have to survive all of the bad things in order to move on and do good things.
and we really have incompetent student directors. sarah just called me and she doesn't have her list of phone numbers so i have to call half the cast and remind them about practice tomorrow.
yikes. goodnight.
there's not too much going on lately. today was my last day of work for a week. :) yay.
this week has been rough. i hate fighting, but there comes a time when you have to face reality and deal with it. so i dealt with it. it wasn't easy, or what i really wanted to do, but i did it. i'm quite proud of myself to. i have to say that i feel better.
i can't believe it's already april. the time is flying by. i don't like it. when i first thought about it, prom was 3 months away. now, it's a month and a half away. there's one person that i really want to go with. up until now, i've never really been shy around said person. i have to admit right now that i'm deathly afraid to ask him to go with me. i feel like i'm 10 years old again. i shouldn't be scared. i have no reason to be scared. no matter how many times i tell myself that, i can't seem to ask him. i know for a fact that i would have fun. i think i'm just afraid of scaring him. prom is a special event. i want to go with someone special. he may not even want to go with me, but you never know until you ask. i wish i could just overcome this stupid fear and ask him before it's too late.
i feel so childish. ahh. wouldn't it be wonderful if he had his own idea and would just ask me? too bad this isn't fairy land. :/
jayme amazed me the other day. we were driving around, and suddenly he got really quiet. he then gave me a speech about his opinions of my life. i was expecting him to tell me something crazy and upset me. he said some things that really proved to me that he does care about me and wants me to be happy.
i know that i've done some really dumb things in the past, especially this year. however, i have absolutely no regrets. in order to learn, you have to live. each and everything i have done, has served a purpose. i gained something from each experience whether it was good or bad. you have to survive all of the bad things in order to move on and do good things.
and we really have incompetent student directors. sarah just called me and she doesn't have her list of phone numbers so i have to call half the cast and remind them about practice tomorrow.
yikes. goodnight.