Soundtrack to Theory of Relativity
We Are The Fuse and the Ammunition
The Official Soundtrack to Theory of Relativity.
Sometime during the nine months I spent writing this (I think around March?), I started compiling songs that reminded me of certain scenes in the fic. Some of them have been around for a long time (“Last Train Home,” for example), while others have been added only within the last few days (“I Hung My Head”). I hope that you enjoy these 17 songs and the accompanying fan fic. It’s definitely a piece of my soul.
The cover for the fanmix was made by me; however, it pales in comparison to the Official Art to Theory of Relativity, which was made by the lovely noelia_g and can be found here
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Track 1
“Heros”
Shinedown
Molly tried to scream, but she gagged on the dirty rag shoved into her mouth. Bile rose in her throat as she sputtered, filling her mouth and adding acid to the filthy, coppery taste covering her tongue...Matt’s outburst, though, was something less like a scream and more like a wail, an unearthly sound that echoed off of the walls of the warehouse.
Dark devotion in a vacant paradise
Shows no emotion to a willing sacrifice
You can put a man on trial but you can’t make the guilty pay
You can cage an animal but you can’t take away the rage
Ain’t nothing for me to end up like this
There’s no comparing me this time.
All my heroes have now become ghosts
Sold their sorrow to the ones who paid the most
All my heroes are dead and gone
They’re inside of me, they still live on.
Track 2
“Breathing Underwater”
Anoushka Shankar and Karsh Kale
Molly felt herself stop breathing for several long moments as she saw Mohinder for the last time, the dusty bits of his body sinking below the surface of the water. The waves of three oceans crashed together on this beach, and Molly wondered which ocean would bear Mohinder away. And which two would never feel his presence again.
Instrumental
Track 3
“If I Ever Leave This World Alive”
Flogging Molly
There was a part of her that didn’t see what was the problem with Mohinder staying with her, forever.
If I ever leave this world alive
I'll take on all the sadness
That I left behind
If I ever leave this world alive
The madness that you feel will soon subside
So in a word don't shed a tear
I'll be here when it all gets weird
If I ever leave this world alive
So when in doubt just call my name
Just before you go insane
If I ever leave this world
Hey I may never leave this world
But if I ever leave this world
alive
Track 4
“Last Train Home”
Ryan Starr
Before long, it all came to them without worry, when Micah would tongue the edge of her nipples and caress secret places with those long fingers, and she’d follow downward that dart of hair under his belly button. When in between shuddered breaths and, eventually, promises of love, there would be a light in each of their eyes and they’d be able to forget all of the parents they’d lost, between them.
We were only kids, we ran like water.
Your dad said,
stay away from my daughter.
The sun was coming down when I said,
can't you just believe?
And if you wait for me,
I'll be the light in the dark if you lose your way.
And if you wait for me,
I'll be your voice when you don't know what to say.
I'll be your shelter, I'll be your fate.
I'll be forever, wait for me.
I'll be the last train,
I'll be the last train home.
Track 5
“Only the Good Die Young”
Billy Joel
“Then go,” Nathan said. “If you don’t agree with us, just go.”
Five minutes later, the kitchen seemed so much emptier, with just Matt and Molly and Nathan and Elle.
They say there’s a heaven for those who can wait
Some say it’s better but I say it ain’t
I’d rather laugh with the sinners than cry with the saints
The sinners are much more fun
Only the good die young.
Track 6
“Slide”
Goo Goo Dolls
“A THREAT?” Micah raged. He turned and took the two steps so that he was standing mere inches away from her. He lifted his fists and clenched them. All of the lights in the room flickered, the clock radio went off, and the microwave turned on. And then for a second, everything in the room went silent and dark. When the lights came back on again, he took a deep, shuddering breath and unclenched his fists.
Don’t you love the life you killed
The priest is on the phone
Your father hit the wall, your ma disowned you
Don’t suppose I’ll ever know what it means to be a man
Something I can’t change, I’ll live around it
I wanna wake up where you are
I won’t say anything at all
So why don’t you slide
Yeah, I’ll do anything you ever dreamed to be complete
Little pieces of the nothing that fall
Track 7
“Thank Goodness”
Kristin Chenoweth (from the musical Wicked)
America was surprised when Congressman Petrelli picked a blue-collar NYPD detective from Brooklyn as his running mate. It was a bold move, but it paid off. What was more patriotic than voting for the NYPD? And what was more reassuring than voting for the one candidate who seemed to know anything about this new looming, mysterious, terrifying threat?
And that was how, at age 22, six months graduated from college with a degree in sociology, of all things, Molly Walker-no, Molly Parkman, must make sure that everyone knows the Vice President’s family is proof that love is stronger than blood-found herself as the head of the newly-minted Bureau of Evolved Human Affairs.
I couldn’t be happier,
No, I couldn’t be happier
Though it is, I admit, the tiniest bit,
Unlike I anticipated.
But I couldn’t be happier
Simply couldn’t be happier
Well, not simply.
‘cause getting your dreams, it’s strange, but it seems
A little, well, complicated.
There’s a kind of a sort of--
Cost
There’s a couple of things get--
Lost
There are bridges you crossed
You didn’t know you’d cross until you crossed
And if that joy, that thrill
Doesn’t thrill like you think it will...
Still, with this perfect finale the cheers and the ballywho
Who wouldn’t be happier?
So, I couldn’t be happier
Because happy is what happens when all your dreams come true
Well...isn’t it?
Track 8
“A Bad Dream”
Keane
“Matt, Peter came to see me.”
“Peter,” Matt said slowly. “Our security is designed to not let him through.”
“I had the system turned off in the Oval Office after Simon died,” Nathan said. “I didn’t see the point in keeping away my family when it was getting smaller seemingly by the day.”
“Seeing as how the encounter didn’t end with him killing you, I’m probably not going to like what you’re going to say next.”
“He wants a peaceful surrender,” Nathan said. “And so do I. I want to shut it down.”
Why do I have to fly?
Over every town up and down the line
I’ll die in the clouds above
And you that I defend I do not love.
I wake up, it’s a bad dream
No one on my side.
I was fighting,
But I just feel too tired to be fighting,
Guess I’m not the fighting kind.
When will I meet my fate?
Baby, I’m a man, I was born to hate
When will I meet my end?
In a better time you could be my friend.
I wake up, it’s a bad dream
No one on my side.
I was fighting,
But I just feel too tired to be fighting,
Guess I’m not the fighting kind.
Wouldn’t mind it if you were by my side,
But you’re long gone,
Yeah you’re long gone now.
Track 9
“Overweight”
Blue October
Everything suddenly fell into place for Mohinder. How could he not have seen it before? Or had he figured it out the moment she walked into his classroom, and he had just been unwilling to admit that the hardened, bitter woman who stood in front of him was his daughter?
“Molly?” he asked, his voice wavering. “My...Molly?”
All of the sudden every atom of her being shifted, focused on Mohinder. “Don’t look at me like that, Mohinder,” she said, her jaw tight.
“Like what?” he asked.
“Like your daughter. I can’t…” she trailed off.
I owned up, I've grown up, do you remember me?
I showed up and so what if I'm the used to be
I'm here to tell you that I'm sorry I was sorry
But I'm happy that you're happy
This is no longer about me
Trade rules, switch sides for your beautiful eyes
Let him be you through your beautiful cries
Let him hold you up so you can touch affordable skies
Live your life just like a dream
Without the pain of goodbyes
Goodbye!
Ever carried the weight of another?
For how long?
Walk as far as they need to recover?
For how long?
Track 10
“Mindreader”
The Sane
“Maybe this sounds naive,” Molly said, “but why can’t we allow people to just quit? If she’s done, let her be done.”
“There’s no guarantee that she’ll stay away forever,” Matt replied. “You were too young to ever know Adam Monroe, but he had the same power as Claire, and it turned him evil, over the centuries. Man isn’t meant to live for so long.”
“But-” Molly started, but she didn’t get any further. It didn’t matter. Her protests were getting weak.
“Molly, honey,” Matt said. “Do it for me, please.”
And Molly knew, when it came down to it, where her loyalties lay. Elle had called it, so many years ago. “I’ll do it for you,” she said.
Will you believe with me, breathe with me,
Grit your teeth and bleed with me
Block the pain, douse the flames
That burn you when you dream of me
Rush to me, sink with me, fight, sleep and think of me
Walk along the water’s edge,
Take my hand and drink with me
I’m a mind reader, but I can’t read your mind
There are bottom feeders, at the windows tonight
There’s a superhero
Waiting for the mask to come off
As we sing empty metaphors
Empty metaphors
Track 11
“I Hung My Head”
Johnny Cash
What Claire had said sunk in finally. The stench of burning flesh still hung so heavy in the air that she could feel it on her tongue. The smell and complete and utter realization that she was a monster made Molly so dizzy and sick to her stomach that it was all she could do to keep from collapsing entirely.
She had killed Maya, she had killed West Rosen, she had killed five other evolved humans, overseen thirty-three state executions and ordered countless captures, but this was different.
Different from everyone but Nathan Petrelli.
Claire was right. Molly was a monster. A messenger of death.
I felt the power of death over life
I orphaned his children, I widowed his wife.
I begged their forgiveness, I wished I was dead
I hung my head.
I hung my head.
Track 12
“Boys Wanna Fight”
Garbage
And Molly thought of herself as someone who finally was doing good work.
It took her some time to figure out that she had traded one master for another. Took her some time to realize that it wasn’t the job of an assassin to bring peace.
What a mess we’ve made, it’s ridiculous
The whole wide world’s a stage of complete chaos
It gets so funny but we get confused.
We don’t know where to turn ‘cause we’ve all been used
The boys wanna fight
But the girls are happy to dance all night
The boys wanna fight
But the girls are happy to dance all night.
Is there anybody else?
Anybody else?
Track 13
“Ammunition”
Switchfoot
“How does it feel, Mohinder?” he asked. “To know that your life is the only thing keeping someone you love from turning evil? Is it possible to reconcile the memory you have of loving someone, even when you know that the whole time they were capable of terrible things?”
Peter’s eyes flickered quickly between Molly and Micah. “You’re not talking about Matt anymore. You two used to sleep together!” Peter said, as though he were so very proud of himself for being able to use his abilities.
Micah and Molly were not so amused. “I know he can’t read my mind, Sanders, so that one must have come from you. Are you thinking about us right now?” Molly asked. Her tone was more taunting than nostalgic.
“Are you?” he countered.
I have no generation, show me my motivation.
One world, one desperation, one hope, and one salvation
We’ve been blowing up, we’re the issue, it’s our condition.
We’ve been blowing up, we’re the issue, a detonation
We’ve been blowing up, we’re the issue, we’re ammunition.
We’re ammunition.
We’re ammunition.
We are the fuse and the ammunition.
Look what a mess we’ve made of love.
Look what a mess we’ve made of love.
Look what a mess we’ve made
We’ve got ourselves to blame
Look what a bomb we’ve made of love.
Track 14
“Hate Me”
Blue October
“Good morning, sweetie,” Matt said as he shuffled into the kitchen. With sleep in his eyes and his lips pressed against the top of her head, he didn’t look much like the despotic ruler of a corrupt government, but she knew the truth.
“Good morning, Daddy,” she answered, folded the newspaper on the tray next to her eggs. There were Secret Service agents lurking at the edge of the door.
“Anything interesting in the paper?” he asked.
“Just about a speech you’re expected to give this afternoon.”
“Oh?” he asked. “Is it supposed to be good?”
She tried to keep her expression even. “Articulate as always, we’ll hope. The general public seems rather pleased about your sterilization programs. They’re a lot more palatable than executions.”
In my sick way I want to thank you for holding my head up late at night
While I was busy waging wars on myself, you were trying to stop the fight
You never doubted my warped opinions on things like suicidal hate
You made me compliment myself when it was way too hard to take
So I’ll drive so fucking far away that I never cross your mind
And do whatever it takes in your heart to leave me behind
Hate me today
Hate me tomorrow
Hate me for all the things I didn’t do for you
Hate me in ways
Yeah ways hard to swallow
Hate me so you can finally see what’s good for you
And like a baby boy I never was a man
Until I saw your blue eyes cry and I held your face in my hand
And then I fell down yelling “Make it go away!
Just make a smile come back and shine just like it used to be.”
And then she whispered “How can you do this to me?”
Track 15
“What I’ve Done”
Linkin Park
“I think I know who you are,” the girl whispered as the woman pulled back. “We’re the same.”
“I never wanted us to be,” the woman replied.
Put to rest
What you thought of me.
While I clean this slate
With the hands of uncertainty.
So let mercy come and wash away
What I've done.
I'll face myself
To cross out what I've become.
Erase myself
And let go of what I've done
Track 16
“Someday”
Pat Monahan
But Nakamura didn’t respond, and a heartbeat later, there was just an empty space where he had been standing. Right. Molly squared her shoulders, knowing what it was she was meant to do. Go to Matt.
But...she couldn’t. Because as she stood alone in the middle of the city, she opened herself up to the memory of the one person she hadn’t been able to find in sixteen years.
Mohinder.
He was at NYU. His first day of classes. Oh god, Mohinder...
I am barely stable, I am afraid to be alone
I am sorry that I always enable
And every day I try to find another way to you
I can admit to my addictions and wish I could be a better friend
I am three kinds of crazy
And every day I try to find another way to you
Someday we'll be together
One day I'll be back in your arms again
Someday I will be where I belong
I've waited so long for someday
I know who's to blame, and that's a shame
Cause I know in the end it doesn't mean a thing
I am convinced that I'll be back again
And when I do I swear to find another way to you
Track 17
“Always Know Where You Are”
BBMak
Molly Parkman didn’t deal in hope. She dealt in doing. So it was time to lock this shit down and focus. She’d save Mohinder. She’d find him. And that was really what this was all about, had been about from the beginning.
Save the geneticist, save the world. Save Matt. Save herself.
She took off running.
It's good to see the sun and feel this place
This place I never thought would feel like home
And I ran forever, far away and I
I always thought I'd end up here alone
Somehow,
The world has changed and I've come home
To give you back the things they took from you
And I feel you now, I'm not alone
I'll always know where you are
When I see myself I'll always know where you are
Where you are
And I found something that was always there
Sometimes it's got to hurt before you feel
But now I'm strong and I won't kneel
Except to thank who's watching over me