Oh lordy, what to do, what to do
Well, I have done it again. I have made myself unsettled. I have a bunch of possibilities for getting a job, but I don't know which to choose. The one that promises the most pay is to work at In N Out for 9 bucks an hour, or possibly as a busboy for the wine&cheese place by my house, at 7.25hr plus 10% of tips. The most fun sounds like the wine&cheese one, but I think I would feel bad quitting it so that I could go back to school.
That's the other thing. Back to school.
Do I really want to go back to school? No. I want to go back to tempe and back to partying, but school is lame, and I am really afraid I am just gonna fuck it up and end up not getting good grades, and wasting my parents money and time. If I KNEW that was true, I would just say screw it and see if I could just move to LA right now. That's what is really on my mind. I wanna move to LA. I wanna live at Cabbe's until I can find a job, something, just so that I can afford to have my own place. I wanna go there and I want to get myself in the best position to get the auditions and acting jobs I have always wanted. I know that if I work really hard at it I can succeed, because that goes for anything.
Stay here, get a fast food job, quit and go back to ASU, study ____________ until I change my major again, and possibly waste 3,000$ of my parents money while giving myself the chance to have a college degree and a sturdy future.
Leave now, go to LA, get some job and live at Cabbe's until I have to figure something else out. All while working my balls off to get the auditions I want and get things to work out for me there, because I know I can do it.
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Shit. This is really no fun, this business of being picky and fickle at the same time. Really very much no fun.
I have two big regrets in my life so far, which one of these will I choose to possibly be my third? I guess we'll find out.
That's the other thing. Back to school.
Do I really want to go back to school? No. I want to go back to tempe and back to partying, but school is lame, and I am really afraid I am just gonna fuck it up and end up not getting good grades, and wasting my parents money and time. If I KNEW that was true, I would just say screw it and see if I could just move to LA right now. That's what is really on my mind. I wanna move to LA. I wanna live at Cabbe's until I can find a job, something, just so that I can afford to have my own place. I wanna go there and I want to get myself in the best position to get the auditions and acting jobs I have always wanted. I know that if I work really hard at it I can succeed, because that goes for anything.
Stay here, get a fast food job, quit and go back to ASU, study ____________ until I change my major again, and possibly waste 3,000$ of my parents money while giving myself the chance to have a college degree and a sturdy future.
Leave now, go to LA, get some job and live at Cabbe's until I have to figure something else out. All while working my balls off to get the auditions I want and get things to work out for me there, because I know I can do it.
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Shit. This is really no fun, this business of being picky and fickle at the same time. Really very much no fun.
I have two big regrets in my life so far, which one of these will I choose to possibly be my third? I guess we'll find out.