indulgence

[wooshoe]

When you practice so much self-control all the time, it can feel thrilling to give in and indulge. Today, I bought myself candy, ice cream, and rotisserie chicken, all things that I never ever buy for myself. The excitement of buying these things coupled with the delicious satisfaction and comfort of eating a hot, oily, somewhat forbidden rotisserie chicken induced a deep amount of pleasure that went beyond satiating hunger.

I guess the nice thing about "forbidding" yourself from so many things is that it's really easy to hit that feeling without doing anything too crazy (e.g. drugs).