hey #32 you couldn't stop a beach ball!
Its been a few months apparently... holy crap. Well this ones short, so basically I just did one of those turn on- and off type stupid bulletins on myspace that keep you occupied when youre bored. Well I was doing it and writing down all my responses to certain things about girls that would either of course turn ons or not, and it kinda got me thinking about the kinds of things i like in girls. I've always kind of wondered if I'm being too picky when it comes to my standards. Every girl that comes my way I nitpick to hell until theyre undesirable, not only that but i don't really trust them oh so much. I would sometimes wonder if I'm being too hard or not. But when i was doing this survey thing-amabob I started seeing all the things in a woman that i would ideally like to have.
I kinda started to miss that feeling (and i know everyone has had that feeling) of when you are absolutley head over heels for someone, where anything they do is great and funny and youd rather do nothing but see them always and feel like that. I miss feeling like that and HONESTLY I've only had that twice in my whole life. So I started thinking am I being too picky, or is it that fact that i wont settle for anything less than my perfect one. Is it wrong to settle only for someone that makes me feel that amazing way? Is it wrong to settle for someone you can't imagine being without and youd give your life for? Or should i just suck it up and date people just for the shit of dating because thats what it seems the rest of the world does and who knows maybe theyre right and i'm not. I dont know why Its so hard to have some one come along who does this to me. Like i've said i've had a ton ton ton of girl friends and girl aquaintances but i've only felt this way twice.
If anyones got any insight on this feel free to shed some light but as of right now i'm kind of stupified by this all. Its just one of those moments i guess.....
I kinda started to miss that feeling (and i know everyone has had that feeling) of when you are absolutley head over heels for someone, where anything they do is great and funny and youd rather do nothing but see them always and feel like that. I miss feeling like that and HONESTLY I've only had that twice in my whole life. So I started thinking am I being too picky, or is it that fact that i wont settle for anything less than my perfect one. Is it wrong to settle only for someone that makes me feel that amazing way? Is it wrong to settle for someone you can't imagine being without and youd give your life for? Or should i just suck it up and date people just for the shit of dating because thats what it seems the rest of the world does and who knows maybe theyre right and i'm not. I dont know why Its so hard to have some one come along who does this to me. Like i've said i've had a ton ton ton of girl friends and girl aquaintances but i've only felt this way twice.
If anyones got any insight on this feel free to shed some light but as of right now i'm kind of stupified by this all. Its just one of those moments i guess.....