Rant time!
Haven't ranted in a whole so right now is as good a time as any. Plus I have 2 totally pathetic thing to rant about.
1. I think I might give up my drum major idea. I realized that no one in my own flipping section even bothers to listen to me so how am I supposed to get a whole band to listen to me. And I can't conduct with both hands at the same time because my left hand is pathetic. And some people just don't make things better, or help. Except Julie..<3 you MOM!
2. I think, no I know, that i am invisible. No one sees me as anything except this smart girl whose shy-ish in groups. What sucks is that I feel like I'm putting on an act everyday, like this is not the real me. But the problem is I can't find the real me. I don't know where I am or where or how I'm supposed to be. Not supposed to, because you can't be a certain way, you just are who you are. Is anyone following this because I lost myself there.. See! I lost myself.. I'm missing and I feel that if I can find the real me everything will be all better. I wish people could see the way i am when I'm around my really good friends away from school and everything. I don't understand why i feel differently in school. I can't express myself either. Sometimes it feels like I have something to say but can't find the words to say it...
well that was a relatively short rant but a rant none the less. If anyone has any suggestions about how to find me.. tell me..please
1. I think I might give up my drum major idea. I realized that no one in my own flipping section even bothers to listen to me so how am I supposed to get a whole band to listen to me. And I can't conduct with both hands at the same time because my left hand is pathetic. And some people just don't make things better, or help. Except Julie..<3 you MOM!
2. I think, no I know, that i am invisible. No one sees me as anything except this smart girl whose shy-ish in groups. What sucks is that I feel like I'm putting on an act everyday, like this is not the real me. But the problem is I can't find the real me. I don't know where I am or where or how I'm supposed to be. Not supposed to, because you can't be a certain way, you just are who you are. Is anyone following this because I lost myself there.. See! I lost myself.. I'm missing and I feel that if I can find the real me everything will be all better. I wish people could see the way i am when I'm around my really good friends away from school and everything. I don't understand why i feel differently in school. I can't express myself either. Sometimes it feels like I have something to say but can't find the words to say it...
well that was a relatively short rant but a rant none the less. If anyone has any suggestions about how to find me.. tell me..please