update
On Wednesday of this week I got my CPAP machine. For those of you who don't know it's a machine that helps me breathe when I'm sleeping. I suffer from sleep apnea, which can be somewhat bothersome and cause a host of other problems. I've used it twice so far (of course). Neither time did I make it all the way through the night without pulling it off. I slept 5 hours the first night, and maybe 4 last night with it on. I suppose I should be pleased that I'm getting even that much, but it will take a lot of getting used to. I have actually been sleeping some after I take the mask off at night, which keeps me from being totally exhausted. Even with the broken sleep, I am feeling a bit better. We'll see how it progresses. With this mask over my nose at night, though, don't be surprised if I shave off my mustache just for comfort sake. I may look funny, but I'll be more comfortable sleeping.
My dreams have also been very odd. The one common theme in the dreams is that I'm out of place. The first one was me moving back into a previous residence, but I didn't have any belongings. I didn't even have a space of my own. I was back to couch-surfing (more or less). I woke up feeling sick, depressed and angry from that. The one last night was a bit better. I had stuff, but it was all packed up and the boxes scattered around. I know this means something, but I'm not really introspective enough to understand it totally.
I'm looking forward to my birthday festivities over the next week. I've got a couple things planned with different people. I'm likely to be more social than normal, but that's a good thing, right? It really makes me feel good knowing that there really are that many people out there that like me, and care enough (or would LIKE to care enough) to come to my celebrations. My parents sent me some money for my birthday, I think I may spend a li'l of it for some ice cream.
***edit*** Well, apparently I'm supposed to be on oxygen at night as well. I just found out about that today when they called to set up delivery of an oxygen accumulator machine. I like surprises but sometimes they're not wholly welcome, you know?
My dreams have also been very odd. The one common theme in the dreams is that I'm out of place. The first one was me moving back into a previous residence, but I didn't have any belongings. I didn't even have a space of my own. I was back to couch-surfing (more or less). I woke up feeling sick, depressed and angry from that. The one last night was a bit better. I had stuff, but it was all packed up and the boxes scattered around. I know this means something, but I'm not really introspective enough to understand it totally.
I'm looking forward to my birthday festivities over the next week. I've got a couple things planned with different people. I'm likely to be more social than normal, but that's a good thing, right? It really makes me feel good knowing that there really are that many people out there that like me, and care enough (or would LIKE to care enough) to come to my celebrations. My parents sent me some money for my birthday, I think I may spend a li'l of it for some ice cream.
***edit*** Well, apparently I'm supposed to be on oxygen at night as well. I just found out about that today when they called to set up delivery of an oxygen accumulator machine. I like surprises but sometimes they're not wholly welcome, you know?