and when i see you, i really see you upside down...
Everything is so fucked up. I don't even know what to do anymore. It's crazy. I actually miss Ricky. He was like the only person who actually made me feel like I was worth something. Rather then the shit I get at home and from everyone else at school. And now that I don't have Ricky anymore it almost brings me down in a sense. It almost makes me feel worthless. Like there is no one else out there who actually cares about me. I know that Ricky really wasn't worth it...but I miss him. I just miss knowing that there is someone out there who cares. I fucking hate all of those guys! They are like a fucking drug I swear! I try so hard to get away from them...but I can't. They like hypnotise me into loving them or something. Ugh, I don't know what to do. Maybe things will get better once Ricky leaves school next week...
...I hope?
...I hope?