and our hearts are around the everglow
Hey there.
Gosh, I never realized how someone can change so much in so little time all because of one person.
I was thinking today, and what would happen if I never met him? I know that I would deffinitely have a lot more trust in people. I know that I probably wouldn't feel so cheap and have a bunch of people hating me for things I never did. I hate how people look at me now. I feel like I did something terribly wrong and that I am not worthy of being a friend. Or even a person.
I have lost all my true friends all because of one stupid boy. How could I have been so dumb? I knew he wasn't the right kind of guy for me and yet I still wanted him so bad. I feel like I ruined everything for myself and there is nothing I can do to fix it.
I don't get it, whenever I get close to anyone something always gets screwed up. Am I like not capable of being just a friend? Did I screw up my reputation so much that no one thinks of me as a person anymore? I feel like I am that "easy girl" that all the girls hate and all the guys want. But it's not that they want me, they just think that I will do stuff with them so they act like they like me until they get what they want and then drop me. I wish I could take back everything I have ever done. Maybe then people would have more respect for me and not treat me this way. Because right now I just feel really lonely. =(
Well I guess that's all. Sorry this entry is so emo. I just had to get that off my chest ;)
Comments are pretty cool.
love love love,
nia
Gosh, I never realized how someone can change so much in so little time all because of one person.
I was thinking today, and what would happen if I never met him? I know that I would deffinitely have a lot more trust in people. I know that I probably wouldn't feel so cheap and have a bunch of people hating me for things I never did. I hate how people look at me now. I feel like I did something terribly wrong and that I am not worthy of being a friend. Or even a person.
I have lost all my true friends all because of one stupid boy. How could I have been so dumb? I knew he wasn't the right kind of guy for me and yet I still wanted him so bad. I feel like I ruined everything for myself and there is nothing I can do to fix it.
I don't get it, whenever I get close to anyone something always gets screwed up. Am I like not capable of being just a friend? Did I screw up my reputation so much that no one thinks of me as a person anymore? I feel like I am that "easy girl" that all the girls hate and all the guys want. But it's not that they want me, they just think that I will do stuff with them so they act like they like me until they get what they want and then drop me. I wish I could take back everything I have ever done. Maybe then people would have more respect for me and not treat me this way. Because right now I just feel really lonely. =(
Well I guess that's all. Sorry this entry is so emo. I just had to get that off my chest ;)
Comments are pretty cool.
love love love,
nia