We try to be cool as we dance in a crowded room; At the end of the day, makin' love to a paper moon
Boys do fall in love[19 Down/33 To Go!][+] This week was all about eating out with friends and spending money on cab rides. Basically an equation for non-saving. Which isn't the best news considering I'm supposed to be tightening the proverbial belt. I'm so bad at this. Perhaps next week we can ease myself back into mass transportation. Yeah, right.
[+] I realize now in hindsight, this week was the calm before the storm. With a huge project being poised to launch, I was surprisingly chill about everything. Little did I know of the clusterfuck I'd be walking into in week 20. But hey, let's not preempt ourselves. Things in hindsight are always a little clearer.
[+] And yes, I'm late to this, but hey, it never hurt to do a meme when one is in need of a picker-upper.
THE YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL MEME
Here's to a good rest of May for everyone. The days are just ticking by really fast.
It's funny when you brace yourself for a really heavy day and it turns out to be not such a crazy day. I guess I should just psych myself up all the time so that if indeed it is a relaxed day, I'll be even more relaxed. Not sure if this is one of my better ideas.
It's also a little disconcerting to be put on the spot for something or anything for that matter. I try to be as diplomatic as I can about everything but it's hard when it's a damned-if-you-do-damned-if-you-don't question. Oh well, I can't say I didn't try.
And because I don't know the meaning of scarcity, I give myself in abundance, which isn't necessarily a bad thing, except I know I should already be making myself scarce. I was never good with supply and demand. I must brush up on my Economics.
I love my floor. Though the 7F isn't where the action is (that's the 6F), you know you can relax and be at ease when you enter the confines of the seventh. So sometimes I still get caught off guard when outside elements invade our precious space. Maybe it's just me.
I'm also usually a very chill person at work but lately, I've been on edge. I try to be a nice person but sometimes, things just tick me off and I sort of, quasi explode. I ended up telling off one of the closest officemates to me for something so small, well not really small, but something I should have brushed off. And I felt guilty about it so I apologized but I can't believe I'm at that point where I don't keep things in anymore. It can be a good thing, but I'm not used to it.
As if the ice cream this afternoon wasn't enough, I head to my ex-manager's birthday dinner with my sister's college friends. I feel like I ate for myself and my sister. But it's all good because Japanese food is always a winner. Plus, it was nice to catch up with her again.
I'm trying not to complain about work just because the job description pretty much says you do everything but there are times when I question the everything line. I ended up pinch hitting again for another group of people and I don't mind but when you're trying to get your real work done and at the same time the 'fake' work, it gets really tiring.
And then there are the projects you don't want to touch with a ten foot pole but have no choice just because if you don't, nothing will happen? Well that's the case and I wish I didn't have to but I really have no say in the matter. I wonder when I'll be able to have a say?
And despite the return of my pscyhogenic dyspnea, I'm proud to say it hasn't taken over my life completely. People aren't questioning me just yet for this lack of breath or what I perceive as such. I hope it doesn't get any worse because right now, it's still manageable.
It's that time of the month when we have to sit through reports that we're not giving. So I shouldn't complain as I'm not the one doing the talking but still, it's like a period. You want it to come but you dread it, really. Thank goodness for the rare light moments these things have.
Still, it gave me some satisfaction, being able to pinch hit when I didn't exactly realize I'd be doing this. I'm glad it was last minute, otherwise I would have worried about it more. And though i'm not cut out for that kind of work, it felt good to be able to help out in a way.
Perfect end to the day? Impromptu dinner with Lou and Stephie. A year ago, I didn't think I'd be friends with these two girls and now I can't imagine work life without them. Plus being the delegated incinerator is always an honor. My stomach is a happy camper.
BUSY DAY IS BUSY. From the moment I step into the office at an ungodly hour, we're already setting up for our mini event in the office and then I'm preparnig for a presentation, I don't want to (and shouldn't have to) do.
I'm shocked I am able to make it to a lunch I thought I was going to have to skip and it was nice to get to see the Candy girls again, even if I was sending emails during lunch. I'm just glad that I was able to join them in spite of everything.
And it's back to the office for the go-see's and I'm glad I'm able to attend a bit of it and participate like last year. Then I'm off to another meeting and at least the folks we were talking to were easy to talk to. I like that they're making my life easier. I can't say the same for everyone.
Then I'm back in the office and staying in late (again) to finish things I probably don't have to do but do anyway. Oh Friday, you tired me out so.
I should not be shopping. I've just come from Korea where I did shop and should be saving for pending trips but I couldn't help it. My dad and mom took my little sister and I to the mall. And though I am somehow immune to the claws of Forever 21, I wasn't so lucky this time. But it felt good to 'reward' myself. I swear, I need to stop justifying the spending.
The eating though? I don't mind at all. I even bumped into an officemate while lining up for milk tea. Japanese food and milk tea are always a winner combination for me and I'm just glad I got my way, food-wise this time.
I also finally got to catch up with some TV. There's still a lot of episodes I haven't seen and some shows I just haven't caught up with but at least for the more important ones, I'm like an episode behind. Which isn't bad considering how far backlogged I am.
Oh Mother's day. Technically, every day should be mother's day or father's day but this one day where we're supposed to honor them more started out in a not so honorable way and leave it to the parents to have it so. But it's all good, because it is real life and we're not a Hallmark card waiting to happen.
We spent the rest of the day at my grandma's house and though it was freaking hot, it was nice to hang out with her given we haven't seen her in quite a bit and she's all alone now. I napped for a bit, to escape the heat but it was a nice, relaxing afternoon.
And because we can't not eat when we're together, we stuffed ourselves silly with all the pizza we could manage. I think the waiters were surprised we ordered so much considering we weren't so plenty. They should really not be shocked by now.