Oct 20, 2006 00:37
I came in an hour and a half early for a group meeting that no one told me had changed time! (turns out hadn't changed time, just only half of us could come at 10, the other half can't make it till 12) Usually I'd be fine, but today, well...
Yesterday I was "bad at world", really bad at world. I have made a few shocking discoveries since then:
1. no one ever is perfect, and you should not worry when people do things imperfectly. Usually their imperfections are actually quite loveable.
2. I'm not going to worry anymore (or, i'm going to try my darndest to quit worrying). It just makes things more complicated than they are, and I'm sure if I let all my worries increase they will ruin everything good in my life.
3. Listening to Neutral Milk Hotel helps everything feel so much better.
Today I am still a little bad at world, I'm feeling like I could shatter if something went wrong. Can you all just be super nice to me if you run into me today? it would really help me out.
Things I am so so so grateful for:
1. Running into Miss Sophie yesterday, who I miss and love like crazy!
2. Nicky T listening to me and letting me use his phone when I needed it.
3. My Brother who listened to me and told me I was being silly, who always listens to me when I am silly and loves me anyway!
4. My David, who did not freak out when I went a little crazy. Also i'm thankful that I'll get to see him tonight, and that he will hopefully give me a hug.
5. I get to see Beautiful Nicolette who makes all my sad times much happier just cos she exists and always makes me smile like a child.
I'm really thankful for all my friends ever, but just these two days the ones listed have really made me smile through my fragility. I promise everyone that in a couple of days I'll be so much better i'll read this post again and giggle at myself, I can feel it coming now!