thanks
I just wanted to say thanks to all my super nifty friends who sent me well wishes, and battymaiden who called and made me laugh, while plotting more revenge schemes. Mwaha. You guys rock. You remind me that I have friends who care, even when I feel like the world is just trying to fuck me. So thank you.
It actually really helped to pour so much anger and pain into that post. I knew the moment I started feeling so much hatred and pain, that I had to write it out. So thanks for reading too, and for the suggestions for making it all feel better.
I'm doing a bit better today, but there are still flippies and floppies in the stomach. Not to mention that slightest things that can make me cry. But, I just have to remind myself of my new outlook on life. I intend to have fun with the time I'm given, and be happy. It doesn't do me any good to sit around and mope. It isn't worth the energy. I will be sad, and I will cry for what I have lost, but not for what could have been, or might have been. It makes me immensely sad to say that, but it is true. I have to stop thinking about all the if's and maybe's. I need to live for me and now, even if now sucks.
So yeah. I'm up at my parents now, and it is always nice to be here. No freeways, or streetlights, or housemates. Just people who love me and a dog who always makes me feel like I'm the most important thing in the world, as long as I play with him, pet him and hug him. And oh yeah, GREEN! Trees, and flowers, and birdies singing in the trees! Well, not right now since it's nighttime, but you get the idea.
It actually really helped to pour so much anger and pain into that post. I knew the moment I started feeling so much hatred and pain, that I had to write it out. So thanks for reading too, and for the suggestions for making it all feel better.
I'm doing a bit better today, but there are still flippies and floppies in the stomach. Not to mention that slightest things that can make me cry. But, I just have to remind myself of my new outlook on life. I intend to have fun with the time I'm given, and be happy. It doesn't do me any good to sit around and mope. It isn't worth the energy. I will be sad, and I will cry for what I have lost, but not for what could have been, or might have been. It makes me immensely sad to say that, but it is true. I have to stop thinking about all the if's and maybe's. I need to live for me and now, even if now sucks.
So yeah. I'm up at my parents now, and it is always nice to be here. No freeways, or streetlights, or housemates. Just people who love me and a dog who always makes me feel like I'm the most important thing in the world, as long as I play with him, pet him and hug him. And oh yeah, GREEN! Trees, and flowers, and birdies singing in the trees! Well, not right now since it's nighttime, but you get the idea.