unemployed... and watching too much tv
Everyone else is getting back to posting in here since it's summer, so I figure I had better do my part and pitch in a few more entries.
So I graduated, I have no job, and I am pretty much sitting around all day hanging out with my dog and watching movies. And doing odd jobs for random people around Ithaca. Mowing the lawn for my nudist eighty-year-old landlady. Building stairs for my coach. Gardening for an old professor. Etc.
I've also been watching a lot of TV online. Like three seasons of Bones. And now I'm steadily working my way through The Office. And watching the office made me realize how much I miss having a friend like Jim and Pam had in each other, with the pranking and the fun and the awkward sexual tension that neither of them thinks will ever come to anything. And I've been thinking gee, it sure would be nice to meet a nice guy like Jim.
Except then I realized something. I don't want to meet Jim Halpert. I AM Jim Halpert. (Aside from the part where I'm a girl.) I'm the one who is stuck in a crap job that I'm overqualified for but I just don't have the long-term goals to get myself out of it. I'm sticking around because I can amuse myself by playing jokes on other people, and because I'm head over heels for someone who wants to be somewhere else but is stuck here until they can find something better. And they were in a relationship, long-term commitment, never looked like I was going to have a chance, and then I did something stupid and told them how I felt, and ruined everything. Yeah, they broke up that bad long-term relationship, but they weren't into me. And everything we had got scrapped.
Except there was no later where they were single and I was single and we both went through those awkward in-between relationships and eventually realized we were perfect for each other. They moved on. I'm still sitting at the desk across from the guy who drives me nuts, wondering what the hell I'm doing with my life and going through the same humdrum motions every day because I just can't come up with anything better.
Where's MY freaking trip to Australia? Can I transfer to Stamford? Anything?
So I graduated, I have no job, and I am pretty much sitting around all day hanging out with my dog and watching movies. And doing odd jobs for random people around Ithaca. Mowing the lawn for my nudist eighty-year-old landlady. Building stairs for my coach. Gardening for an old professor. Etc.
I've also been watching a lot of TV online. Like three seasons of Bones. And now I'm steadily working my way through The Office. And watching the office made me realize how much I miss having a friend like Jim and Pam had in each other, with the pranking and the fun and the awkward sexual tension that neither of them thinks will ever come to anything. And I've been thinking gee, it sure would be nice to meet a nice guy like Jim.
Except then I realized something. I don't want to meet Jim Halpert. I AM Jim Halpert. (Aside from the part where I'm a girl.) I'm the one who is stuck in a crap job that I'm overqualified for but I just don't have the long-term goals to get myself out of it. I'm sticking around because I can amuse myself by playing jokes on other people, and because I'm head over heels for someone who wants to be somewhere else but is stuck here until they can find something better. And they were in a relationship, long-term commitment, never looked like I was going to have a chance, and then I did something stupid and told them how I felt, and ruined everything. Yeah, they broke up that bad long-term relationship, but they weren't into me. And everything we had got scrapped.
Except there was no later where they were single and I was single and we both went through those awkward in-between relationships and eventually realized we were perfect for each other. They moved on. I'm still sitting at the desk across from the guy who drives me nuts, wondering what the hell I'm doing with my life and going through the same humdrum motions every day because I just can't come up with anything better.
Where's MY freaking trip to Australia? Can I transfer to Stamford? Anything?