My Wedding.
I still haven't got the invitations filled out yet. The other day I was all in the mood to get it done and I asked Adam to call his mom and get the addresses for his side of the family. Well, he didn't. Then he asked me to help him clean a little. I told him that I wanted to get them done and he said he would help me do them later and that I should help him clean. So I did. I helped him clean a little and then he never helped me fill out the invitations. I really don't know how to do it either. I am so lost. All I wanted him to do was call his mom and see if she had the addresses. I didn't want him to go get them just call her. We could have gotten them together. This next part I am going to type will make me sad but, I have to type it. I want people to know what I think. I think that maybe he isn't ready to get married to me. I have only asked him to do two things and he seems to not want to do any of it. He didn't want to make a list for the food we would be eating and he wouldn't call his mom and I asked him to do that three times. I don't care if we were to wait until he was ready to get married but, he wont tell me if he isn't. He says he wants to marry me but, the things he was supposed to do I did. Well, his mom and I had to coaxe it out of him. We all three sat down and decided on a list of food. I am really scared that he is going to freak out at the last minute. I don't want that to happen. I just want to be with him. I don't care if we are married. I mean, I do but, I don't. You know?
Karen: You didn't hurt my feelings. It's just when you asked me if I really wanted to get married it made me think about the fact that maybe he doesn't want to marry me. I want it. I really do but, what if he is the one who has frozen feet and just doesn't want to admit it because he doesn't want to hurt me or make me feel like he doesn't want to marry me at all? I don't know what to do really. I just wish I knew how he truly felt about it. He says he wants to marry me. I'm so confused and I don't like it. I'm sorry for when we were on the phone. You don't know how much all this crap makes me upset. Maybe you do. I don't know.
Well, I don't know if that was all good with the words but, it was emotion so I don't know if it has to be. It just came as it saw fit.
Don't want to be sad. Bye.
Love Rocks.
Mommy Bebo Maggot.
Karen: You didn't hurt my feelings. It's just when you asked me if I really wanted to get married it made me think about the fact that maybe he doesn't want to marry me. I want it. I really do but, what if he is the one who has frozen feet and just doesn't want to admit it because he doesn't want to hurt me or make me feel like he doesn't want to marry me at all? I don't know what to do really. I just wish I knew how he truly felt about it. He says he wants to marry me. I'm so confused and I don't like it. I'm sorry for when we were on the phone. You don't know how much all this crap makes me upset. Maybe you do. I don't know.
Well, I don't know if that was all good with the words but, it was emotion so I don't know if it has to be. It just came as it saw fit.
Don't want to be sad. Bye.
Love Rocks.
Mommy Bebo Maggot.