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So I went up to bed last night around 11:00, all intent on waking up at 8:00.
Bu discovered I wasn't tired.
So I decided to read until I was tired.
But then I started thinking.
Things that I know will bother me and keep me up.
And I started to elaborate on those thoughts with a multitude of "what if?"s.
And it got me so nervous and riled up I felt like I was gonna have a panic attack.
So I continued reading, trying to relax, with my foot bouncing up and down and my eyes skimming the words and not reading them, just thinking thinking thinking.
And I kept looking at the clock, thinking, "Oh, man, how am I gonna wake up at 8:00? It's so late. Why am I still awake? How can I get to sleep?"
So I just stayed up more and thought about that.
Long story short, I woke up at 11:30 and I'm still tiiiiired.
I'm a mess.
A big worrisome mess.
Bu discovered I wasn't tired.
So I decided to read until I was tired.
But then I started thinking.
Things that I know will bother me and keep me up.
And I started to elaborate on those thoughts with a multitude of "what if?"s.
And it got me so nervous and riled up I felt like I was gonna have a panic attack.
So I continued reading, trying to relax, with my foot bouncing up and down and my eyes skimming the words and not reading them, just thinking thinking thinking.
And I kept looking at the clock, thinking, "Oh, man, how am I gonna wake up at 8:00? It's so late. Why am I still awake? How can I get to sleep?"
So I just stayed up more and thought about that.
Long story short, I woke up at 11:30 and I'm still tiiiiired.
I'm a mess.
A big worrisome mess.