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I am so freakin nervous! Its like the feeling I usually get right before I play a basketball game or take a huge test or something. I just got off the phone with freddy and before I could answer his questions about ben, and whether i liked him, something happened with the connection. But yeah.. Im kind of scared to admit how much I like him. And I hadnt seen him in like a week before last night, so I was starting to think that it was just a little crush and nothing would happen. But I think were deffinately going out to dinner tonight.. possibly alone.. in san francisco.. and I cant really breathe when I think about it. But Im pretty damn excited. And I know that Im leaving for school in a little while and we dont really know that much about eachother at all (although i have told him about my junior year for some reason) but I dont really want that to get in the way of us getting to know eachother better for the time that I am still here. This is all kinda funny. But, when does this shit ever happen to me?? Never. So fuck that, let me have my fun. This might be really the only person that I have ever liked for them, and nothing to do with what they look like (not saying that hes bad looking.. hes most deff not) or how they dress or anything.. its just the way he is. And as sad as that might be.. im proud of myself. so whatever. ill prob write in this thing more now.. i just have been kinda lazy.. but yeah, what else is new.
man i really hope tonight goes well.
man i really hope tonight goes well.