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Lately things have been going well. I havent updated in a while. Maybe thats the reason. I have a tendency to only write about my problems and how my life sucks and all that shit. Maybe its for attention, but I dont really think thats it. I think its more that when I am doing alright I dont feel the need to write it or express my happiness. Well anyway.
Ive been talking a lot to my parents via email, and even though I know that its not necessarily the healthiest and best way of communicating, its still good I think. I mean, I have never really been able to talk openly with them and get my point across. It either turns into me bawling and not being able to talk, or the other person getting fed up with me and thinking im totally wrong and there is no problem. I guess I have a deffinate communication problem in general. I dont like making people feel bad at all, so I opt for pretending that everything is ok. Which is not good at all. So atleast this way I can say things that i cant in person even though I know Im going to have to at some point. But now that i think about it its prob just making it worse. I should just get over it and talk to them. Like really talk to them. Even in e-mails, you can never fully get your point across. New goal, talk to my parents on the phone atleast twice a week each. I used to talk to them like once a day. But i guess that was just homesickness.
Back to how things are going well. This weekend has been kinda weird, but it was pretty chill. Did some stuff that I havent in a while. Ems party was cool cuz it was like tons of people that I see almost everyday but in a different environment and more relaxed. But fuck, Im tired. My eyes feel like they are burning out of my sockets and even when I shut them, it kills. Oh well, hopefully that will go away. Well, back to family guy.
Ive been talking a lot to my parents via email, and even though I know that its not necessarily the healthiest and best way of communicating, its still good I think. I mean, I have never really been able to talk openly with them and get my point across. It either turns into me bawling and not being able to talk, or the other person getting fed up with me and thinking im totally wrong and there is no problem. I guess I have a deffinate communication problem in general. I dont like making people feel bad at all, so I opt for pretending that everything is ok. Which is not good at all. So atleast this way I can say things that i cant in person even though I know Im going to have to at some point. But now that i think about it its prob just making it worse. I should just get over it and talk to them. Like really talk to them. Even in e-mails, you can never fully get your point across. New goal, talk to my parents on the phone atleast twice a week each. I used to talk to them like once a day. But i guess that was just homesickness.
Back to how things are going well. This weekend has been kinda weird, but it was pretty chill. Did some stuff that I havent in a while. Ems party was cool cuz it was like tons of people that I see almost everyday but in a different environment and more relaxed. But fuck, Im tired. My eyes feel like they are burning out of my sockets and even when I shut them, it kills. Oh well, hopefully that will go away. Well, back to family guy.