"Oh how sweet that day will be when you look and say to me 'It's over now.'"
ok so today officially sucked a lot. i forgot my chapstick which in me and danielles world equals a sucky day. so yea school. got home and went to work. now im here. um yes. i was gonna do my creative writing thing. im gonna do it later even though im dead tired. so i was thinking something today. i have a lot of friends. i have a lot a lot of aquantances and friends. and a lot of friends and aqauintances come to me and say "why dont u call" "Where have you been" I kinda realized that i keep my BEST friends close to me. honestly i have so much shit on my plate right now i cant keep up with every friendship and relationship. so i think people need to accept that. if your not really really close to me ur nott gonan get my attention during the week.
anyways i had a chat with allie last night and im really glad we talked. instead of fighting over who was right and who was wrong we just laughed. we got to remember all the good times we had and sort of laughed at all the bad times. im glad shes moving on and that shes happy and i think she feels the same about me. i really dont care what people say, i loved that girl with all my heart and soul. there wasnt just the allie everyone saw. there was more and i knew that all along. i know me and her cant be together anymore cause it doesnt work. too much shit went on and feelings change. ive fallen out of romantic love but i still love and care about her. i know if she was in trouble of any sort id be the first one there holding her hand helping her. although shes not my girlfriend or my love anymore she still has a place in my heart. ive moved on. i still remember all those bad things we did to eachother but ive gotten over them. theres no use hating someone for the rest of your life. life is too short and ive learned that over the past month. none of us know when were going to die. and im not ready to hold a grudge because one girl broke my heart. i also wanna thank allie for everything she did to me. i learned lessons that were vital in who i am today. from now on i dont settle for what i dont deserve. im gonna settle for exactly what i deserve.
tomrorow is friday and i cant wait. this has been the longest week of school yet. im so tireddd. i want to go do fun things at the spot. these fun things could include become under the influence with people i love. and incase you didnt know Killswitch Engage, Everytime I Die, Dillinger Escape Plan and PARKWAY DRIVE at Starland Ballroom on February 1st 2008. tickets go on sale tomorrow. WHOS GOING BABY? winston....i love you
anyways i had a chat with allie last night and im really glad we talked. instead of fighting over who was right and who was wrong we just laughed. we got to remember all the good times we had and sort of laughed at all the bad times. im glad shes moving on and that shes happy and i think she feels the same about me. i really dont care what people say, i loved that girl with all my heart and soul. there wasnt just the allie everyone saw. there was more and i knew that all along. i know me and her cant be together anymore cause it doesnt work. too much shit went on and feelings change. ive fallen out of romantic love but i still love and care about her. i know if she was in trouble of any sort id be the first one there holding her hand helping her. although shes not my girlfriend or my love anymore she still has a place in my heart. ive moved on. i still remember all those bad things we did to eachother but ive gotten over them. theres no use hating someone for the rest of your life. life is too short and ive learned that over the past month. none of us know when were going to die. and im not ready to hold a grudge because one girl broke my heart. i also wanna thank allie for everything she did to me. i learned lessons that were vital in who i am today. from now on i dont settle for what i dont deserve. im gonna settle for exactly what i deserve.
tomrorow is friday and i cant wait. this has been the longest week of school yet. im so tireddd. i want to go do fun things at the spot. these fun things could include become under the influence with people i love. and incase you didnt know Killswitch Engage, Everytime I Die, Dillinger Escape Plan and PARKWAY DRIVE at Starland Ballroom on February 1st 2008. tickets go on sale tomorrow. WHOS GOING BABY? winston....i love you