just whatever
Well it's a sunday. I managed to finish my hwk beside my english essays. I'm not too worried about the essays themselves. I'm more worried about the outline and what not. those seem to take forever ! at least im feeling confident about the essays. then again i felt confident about other essays and they killed my grade . i hope this one doesn't betray me too badly ! i wouldn't be able to live with a classgrade lower than a b . how nerdy. whatever i just better get my damn a on my report card. college is my goal !
Hmm, im a dork ! i made a username according to my "obsession" with a certain boy who goes by kevinwong. I wouldn't be surprised if the whole world soon knows. It's not like i keep it much of a secret. i'd tell anyone who asks . can't really see how it would hurt.
Lately i haven't felt good about myself. im constantly tearing myself down. it's more or less having to do with the way i look. it can't be helped that my essays grades are a factor. i don't remember doing essays so much. so it's a new experience. i never really had a good teacher to help in that field . but whatever can't keep complaining about that. so back to the point. i want to be confident about my appearance. but it's not very easy these days where the world wide standard of beauty is everywhere. constantly im reminded of how .. unhomely i am. of course i know im alright looking... it's just i wish it was more. and it's also my brain . i don't feel smart. i doubt i am. i just do enough to get by ... my mother's standards. I try not to express these things seriously because i'm learning to be grateful for what i am and that i have to work for what i want and not wish for it. everything i usually say about myself is more jokingly than seriously unless it's about my writing. i know that could use some serious help.
i'm thinking this is more than enough. till next time =]
Hmm, im a dork ! i made a username according to my "obsession" with a certain boy who goes by kevinwong. I wouldn't be surprised if the whole world soon knows. It's not like i keep it much of a secret. i'd tell anyone who asks . can't really see how it would hurt.
Lately i haven't felt good about myself. im constantly tearing myself down. it's more or less having to do with the way i look. it can't be helped that my essays grades are a factor. i don't remember doing essays so much. so it's a new experience. i never really had a good teacher to help in that field . but whatever can't keep complaining about that. so back to the point. i want to be confident about my appearance. but it's not very easy these days where the world wide standard of beauty is everywhere. constantly im reminded of how .. unhomely i am. of course i know im alright looking... it's just i wish it was more. and it's also my brain . i don't feel smart. i doubt i am. i just do enough to get by ... my mother's standards. I try not to express these things seriously because i'm learning to be grateful for what i am and that i have to work for what i want and not wish for it. everything i usually say about myself is more jokingly than seriously unless it's about my writing. i know that could use some serious help.
i'm thinking this is more than enough. till next time =]