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i wish i didn't suck so hard at making / keeping friendships.
not that i sit here expecting wishing to make a difference.
i'm just so not sure what to do about it, though, and it makes me sad.
i know people say good things
it's just that i feel sort of horrible at making / keeping for real meaningful connections with friends.
and i try to do nice things and show friends that i care, but it's real hard for me to tell if it makes any difference at all cause i'm extremely dense about such things, and friends don't so much tell me when this that or the other thing that i do is something important to them.
so i'm all sorts of doubtful and self-conscious about my friendships.
and it doesn't help things that i've drifted away from so many friends.
i mean i hardly ever talk to / hear from anyone anymore, let alone get out and do things.
something needs to change.
not that i sit here expecting wishing to make a difference.
i'm just so not sure what to do about it, though, and it makes me sad.
i know people say good things
it's just that i feel sort of horrible at making / keeping for real meaningful connections with friends.
and i try to do nice things and show friends that i care, but it's real hard for me to tell if it makes any difference at all cause i'm extremely dense about such things, and friends don't so much tell me when this that or the other thing that i do is something important to them.
so i'm all sorts of doubtful and self-conscious about my friendships.
and it doesn't help things that i've drifted away from so many friends.
i mean i hardly ever talk to / hear from anyone anymore, let alone get out and do things.
something needs to change.