flutter away, little butterfly...
it's funny. there's a part of me that wants so badly to have more friends in my life. good ones, the kind you can count on in a tight spot. friends are important to me, you know? good friends... they mean everything...
when i say funny, i don't mean funnyhaha. i mean funnyfuckedup.
i say it's funny, though, because i'm not doing much of anything to actually make new friends. not only that, but i'm taking friends i have now and actually cutting them out of my life. and this is not typical marcus style at all. my friends used to be my whole world, there was almost nothing i wouldn't do for them... but somewhere along the way, i became the most horribly jaded bastard. i think what spoiled me is that i did put so much into maintaining those friendships that it felt i wasn't getting enough back out of them. and that sort of turns me off to the whole thing, you know?
flutter away, little butterfly. just flutter away.
in a way, i think it sort of sucks that i've become so cynical. but being such a cynic, i sort of don't give a fuck. i guess i've lost my trade marked patience for dealing with things. things like so-called friends that don't take the time to speak to me. things like so-called friends that don't bother returning phone calls. hi. my name is marcus. and i hate phones. things like so-called friends that don't take the initiative and leave me always holding the bag. things like so-called friends that say shit about how much our friendship means then turn around and walk away from that like nothing happened.
shit like that tends to piss me the fuck off. and i'm about through putting up with it. which has brought about the rampant friend cleaning spree i've just gone on. i just went and deleted a shit-ton of eljay and aim screen names, you see. i'm slowing down now, although that doesn't necessarily mean that i'm done. but that's besides the point. point is, maybe it's about time to rethink where we stand, especially if you happen to be one of those that's just been deleted. and hey, maybe i made a mistake. shit happens. maybe this is just me having a not so hot day. whatever the case, you may want to speak up and let me know that you're still here. if you feel that i've made a mistake, then let me know. otherwise, i'll just flutter away.
when i say funny, i don't mean funnyhaha. i mean funnyfuckedup.
i say it's funny, though, because i'm not doing much of anything to actually make new friends. not only that, but i'm taking friends i have now and actually cutting them out of my life. and this is not typical marcus style at all. my friends used to be my whole world, there was almost nothing i wouldn't do for them... but somewhere along the way, i became the most horribly jaded bastard. i think what spoiled me is that i did put so much into maintaining those friendships that it felt i wasn't getting enough back out of them. and that sort of turns me off to the whole thing, you know?
flutter away, little butterfly. just flutter away.
in a way, i think it sort of sucks that i've become so cynical. but being such a cynic, i sort of don't give a fuck. i guess i've lost my trade marked patience for dealing with things. things like so-called friends that don't take the time to speak to me. things like so-called friends that don't bother returning phone calls. hi. my name is marcus. and i hate phones. things like so-called friends that don't take the initiative and leave me always holding the bag. things like so-called friends that say shit about how much our friendship means then turn around and walk away from that like nothing happened.
shit like that tends to piss me the fuck off. and i'm about through putting up with it. which has brought about the rampant friend cleaning spree i've just gone on. i just went and deleted a shit-ton of eljay and aim screen names, you see. i'm slowing down now, although that doesn't necessarily mean that i'm done. but that's besides the point. point is, maybe it's about time to rethink where we stand, especially if you happen to be one of those that's just been deleted. and hey, maybe i made a mistake. shit happens. maybe this is just me having a not so hot day. whatever the case, you may want to speak up and let me know that you're still here. if you feel that i've made a mistake, then let me know. otherwise, i'll just flutter away.