He's probably thinking of asking you the same thing!
Joey comes home on wendsday.
That excites me to no end.
I miss the hell out of him
And i really love when he makes me talk to him for at least 40 minutes on the phone.
He wakes me up and wont let me get off the phone with him
What a stupid boy :)
I can't wait till friday when i finally get to see him.
Liz is home for christmas break.
She will be working @ mambo.
Which makes me happy. because i will get to see her when she's home a lot.
For christmas i will have the whole family here.
Liz.Joey.Jesse.Mom.Dad.
You have no idea how happy that makes me.
Just like every year before.
But this one will be harder.
Without a doubt. Memere wont be here.
Christmas eve is going to be so fucked up.
My mom's brother and wife arent coming.
It seems that my memere was the glue that held this family together.
Even with all the shit my mom and her sister-in-law had, my mom was kind enough to invite them
and they turned it down.
it was such an awefull thing to realize.
when you have one family that is so close and calm
it's difficult to see your other family fall apart because of the death of the mother.
we all miss her. but that doesnt mean we cant still be family.
maybe it will be better that they arent here.
we wont have that awkward tension. god knows it's always there anyway.
my cousins and their baby wont be attending either.
my mother was a little late in inviting them
but she cleared it up. thank god.
So christmas eve will consist of 9 people.
close, intimate, christmas eve.
Without memere it'll be tough.
Waking up christmas morning and having her not sitting @ my table eating burnt toast is going to be so sad.
Having her not cry when she gets her gifts from us.
Always the same purfume & gift certificates.
She always knew she would get them. Yet every year she was so happy that she cried.
She was so thankfull for everything.
And i miss the hell out of her. And i will for a long time.
It's already been 5 months. But that's not time enough.
Maybe things will get better.
All and all i'm looking foward to christmas.
I have amazing friends. Who dont expect anything from me. And nor i them
but we all know there will be gifts exchanged.
I have an amazing boyfriend who loves me. And this is the first christmas with that.
Im excited to see how things work out.
It's been almost a year since i've liked/loved this boy.
That's a hell of a long time. And i am so gratefull for him.
I wont be getting a lot of gifts. But i dont want a lot of gifts.
I don't really NEED anything. And im so pumped that i finally realize that.
My parents are amazing. And they tried so hard this christmas to make us happy.
And they are happy with it. So, so am i.
Nearly, Happy Holidays.
emma
There are 8 days till christmas.
And still no snow. What is new england?!