my inner pessimist seems to have just got the best of me tonight.
i do not understand this world in the least bit. it pisses me off to no
end yet i love it with all my heart. yet i dont....? i dont know. its
like, WHY must people be so closed minded??? i've heard many answers to
that question and none of them have satisfied me at all. "because they
are scared of what could be." "because society has made them think that
way." "blah blah blah..." but what about what made society feel the
need to make people like that? also, the people are
the society so....what does that mean? and its like when one bad
discriminatory-related thing happens i get upset and half the time
people are telling me im overreacting and see, thats just it, if i dont
over react no one ever fucking listens. like, if you dont tell someone
what they are doing is hurtful and such then they dont stop. and they
dont even think about their actions at all. if you dont get upset about
it nothing is ever going to change. and also, when i rant to people
about shit like that happening they always end up saying thats the way
it is, thats the way things work. well, fuck that.
i am not even close to be satisfied with the explantion of 'thats
the way things work' because the only reason thats the way things work
is because WE MADE THEM WORK THAT WAY. and we can undo it too, if we
tried. but people you gotta try!!
theres very few people who really try and advocate and spread awareness
and it makes me so mad! it can be so simple. its as easy as telling
some one off after they say 'thats so gay' or call someone a fag. and
its as easy as not asking a mother what gender her child is. because it
does not matter!! before we
are even born, while we are in the womb, people are already pounding
into our heads that the world is binary. things are a certain way and
if they are not that certain way then they are outcasted from society.
we give children labels to learn and new things to try - but only if
they are gender appropriate of course. like, "here! where these pants
bob!" and "ohh, you would look SO much better in a pink frilly dress
suzy!" and the whole fact that parents try and figure out what their
child's gender is so they can buy gender appropriate clothes and
furniture and such. its stupid. gender is irrelevant. and that fact
that im the only one who i ever hear calling someone on gay slurs and
such pisses me off so much. SO many people are like "yeah, i agree they
shouldnt say that." but then they dont fucking do ANYthing
when it happens other then MAYBE roll their eyes. its like that bumper
sticker i saw that said it SO perfectly, it said "if youre not angry
then you are ignoring the issue." or something like that. its like,
PLEASE HELP. im sick and tired of being the only one who fucking
advocates and is constantly calling people on shit and spreading
awareness because, folks, im tired. im so incredibly tired of standing
for so many causes and working to better this fucked up world and i am
only 16 years old. if im tired now imagine me in 20 years. I AM SICK OF
having to grow up too fast!! my child hood was completely stolen. and
im pissed off now. and i think maybe if i saw more people trying to
fucking do something, REALLY DO SOMETHING i would be so
much less tired. because i would have the reassurance that we are
progressively making progress and i would know that i am not the only
angry one. (i know im not the only angry one now, im just pissed that
some other people who are angry dont do anything about it).
if you are not working to make something better, then as far as i am concerned you are taking up way too much of this fucking precious space. because i work my ass off just to make it so maybe when i go to a clinic or even to the fucking bathroom i feel safe. and im sorry but for all i know, if you are so goddamned privelged to be able to go to the bathroom and not feel inferior then fucking help someone who does go through that shit. stand up for something. i work my ass off just so maybe, maybe when im gone the next person who is where i was will have an easier time.
people, if you dont show some fucking kindness to one another sometime really fucking soon im gonna explode.
that was my rant and im not going to try and explain some things in it because frankly i dont feel like it, i know some things in there are really generalized and other such things but, if you know me well enough, you'll know what im fucking trying to say.
and that is all.
if you are not working to make something better, then as far as i am concerned you are taking up way too much of this fucking precious space. because i work my ass off just to make it so maybe when i go to a clinic or even to the fucking bathroom i feel safe. and im sorry but for all i know, if you are so goddamned privelged to be able to go to the bathroom and not feel inferior then fucking help someone who does go through that shit. stand up for something. i work my ass off just so maybe, maybe when im gone the next person who is where i was will have an easier time.
people, if you dont show some fucking kindness to one another sometime really fucking soon im gonna explode.
that was my rant and im not going to try and explain some things in it because frankly i dont feel like it, i know some things in there are really generalized and other such things but, if you know me well enough, you'll know what im fucking trying to say.
and that is all.