i saw you
I saw you
today for the first time since late september/early october. I forgot
how beautiful you are. Well, no, i guess i didnt exactly forget, but it
was a nice little wake up call seeing you, with your friends waiting
for the same bus. It made me laugh when I realized you had seen me and
was purposely not saying hi or acknoweldgeing me in the least bit. But
it was one of those oh-how-i-wish-could-help-you-you-are-so-in-denial
laughs. You saw me and you instantly tensed up. And i was totally fine.
I was debating whether or not i should nod and smile (if i caught your
eye, which i didnt) or if i should be like "Hey you.." but i didnt.
See, i dont want to make you uncomfortable. But today, I wanted to go
up to you so bad and tell you that you were beautiful no matter what
you are, no matter what anybody else says (cuz i've seen you bare) and
i wanted to ask you: "what are you so afriad of? what is so scary about
this that you cant even look me in the eye after 10 months??" You kow,
i am not scary, im not going to bite and im not going to do anything
else to you for that matter other then be here if you need it. But i
know you'll never come to me for anything. You're too caught up in the
scariness of the matter. Even though i bet you could ask anyone and
they would say im not going to hurt you.
it's okay to be scared but, honey,
how long can you stay like this? I can see how miserable you are, it shines through your eyes. And anyone paying attention in the least bit should be able to tell.
You need yourself to survive, to achieve happiness.
So let yourself be yourself.
it's okay to be scared but, honey,
how long can you stay like this? I can see how miserable you are, it shines through your eyes. And anyone paying attention in the least bit should be able to tell.
You need yourself to survive, to achieve happiness.
So let yourself be yourself.