Specifically for Melissa...
With the pain killer in my system, the alcohol acts faster than normal. This is not, in any way, a bad thing. I'm taking Vicodine for my wisdom teeth, and the alcohol is to help me deal with life, which at present is being more of a bitch than usual.
Ok, maybe I should take a moment and appologize. With the first line of what is sure to be this piece of shit post, please excuse my spelling errors and shit that makes no sense...
Ok, so where do I start...(frankly, this is supposed to be a post about how shitting things are right now, but I can't stop thinking about Mel)
I'm not going to continue this sharade, I've got a host of things on my mind, some I can speak of in polite company, some not, but none of them are going to come out worth a damn at this point in my intoxication (not to mention that my mental state is in quick decline right now), so I'm going to stop, save myself getting in trouble or telling some secret or lie that should never leave my lips (or my fingers in this instance); I'm going to watch part of Dogma, spend my intoxicated night contemplating the truth about God and shut my eyes for about 4 hours of much needed sleep. Actually, the only thing of signifcance I'm willing to say (teaser!!!) is that I'm going to be engaged within the next few months!!!!!!! A great deal of excitement, worry and nevervousness fills my every muscle as I contemplate the step by step designe of my plans for proposal (Skittle, I know you are reading this...) and try to immagine and perfect every moment. I've got the world's best woman, one which I know I could never survive without, one that I am convinced, with every beat of my aching heart, is my soul mate. I know she has been through a lot to stay with me, and I want this proposal to be perfect, she deserves it, so I'm putting a great deal of planning into it. Fuck, I need to stop. This is getting out of hand, I'm going to say to much, or maybe I already have...Melissa, I love you, I need you, I think about you every second of every day, and I could never live without you. Please continue your patience, in the end, I promise that all our years of hardship will be rewarded in the end, but I need you to bear with me.
"It's not going to be easy. It's gonna be really hard. And we're gonna have to work at this every day, but I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever. You and me, every day..." - The Notebook
I love you, I can't stop thinking about you, and God help me, I'm going to do everything in my power to give you the world, or as much of it as God premits me. I could never fully express what you mean to me, but I can assure you, that had it not been for you, I would never reach my full potential, and frankly, I would have dropped out of school years ago. Thank you, baby, for being the one person who has never lost faith in me, for being the one to make me believe in myself again, and though you'll never understand, for being the one thing that has saved me from mysel time and time again. You are my world and without you, my life would not be worth living. Though my love for you is boundless, I must be frank (no pun intened), I need you in my life to keep me on track, to be my one place to find solice, to keep me from the terrors that could me my own wrath. I love you, you are my counter part, the only one that could ever complete me, my better half, and the only woman I could ever love, the only woman I would ever want to make love to, and the one and only one I shall ever marry, if you can stay with me that long. Thank you.
Ok, maybe I should take a moment and appologize. With the first line of what is sure to be this piece of shit post, please excuse my spelling errors and shit that makes no sense...
Ok, so where do I start...(frankly, this is supposed to be a post about how shitting things are right now, but I can't stop thinking about Mel)
I'm not going to continue this sharade, I've got a host of things on my mind, some I can speak of in polite company, some not, but none of them are going to come out worth a damn at this point in my intoxication (not to mention that my mental state is in quick decline right now), so I'm going to stop, save myself getting in trouble or telling some secret or lie that should never leave my lips (or my fingers in this instance); I'm going to watch part of Dogma, spend my intoxicated night contemplating the truth about God and shut my eyes for about 4 hours of much needed sleep. Actually, the only thing of signifcance I'm willing to say (teaser!!!) is that I'm going to be engaged within the next few months!!!!!!! A great deal of excitement, worry and nevervousness fills my every muscle as I contemplate the step by step designe of my plans for proposal (Skittle, I know you are reading this...) and try to immagine and perfect every moment. I've got the world's best woman, one which I know I could never survive without, one that I am convinced, with every beat of my aching heart, is my soul mate. I know she has been through a lot to stay with me, and I want this proposal to be perfect, she deserves it, so I'm putting a great deal of planning into it. Fuck, I need to stop. This is getting out of hand, I'm going to say to much, or maybe I already have...Melissa, I love you, I need you, I think about you every second of every day, and I could never live without you. Please continue your patience, in the end, I promise that all our years of hardship will be rewarded in the end, but I need you to bear with me.
"It's not going to be easy. It's gonna be really hard. And we're gonna have to work at this every day, but I wanna do that because I want you. I want all of you, forever. You and me, every day..." - The Notebook
I love you, I can't stop thinking about you, and God help me, I'm going to do everything in my power to give you the world, or as much of it as God premits me. I could never fully express what you mean to me, but I can assure you, that had it not been for you, I would never reach my full potential, and frankly, I would have dropped out of school years ago. Thank you, baby, for being the one person who has never lost faith in me, for being the one to make me believe in myself again, and though you'll never understand, for being the one thing that has saved me from mysel time and time again. You are my world and without you, my life would not be worth living. Though my love for you is boundless, I must be frank (no pun intened), I need you in my life to keep me on track, to be my one place to find solice, to keep me from the terrors that could me my own wrath. I love you, you are my counter part, the only one that could ever complete me, my better half, and the only woman I could ever love, the only woman I would ever want to make love to, and the one and only one I shall ever marry, if you can stay with me that long. Thank you.