(no subject)
daddy I want to make you proud
look what I can do
keep my teeth white (tobacco-stained)
toss and turn between white sheets (sleep-deprived)
talk to mother on the phone with a white nose (sleep-deprived)
she says
keep praying
keep praying
holy mary mother of God sniff
blessed art thou among women sniff
and blessed is the fruit of thy womb sniff
Jesus Christ
I can do more
but waiting around for it to happen
just terminal indecision
just terminal depression
my cheeks are always wet
I want to do something great before you go
is that silly
where would you take that comfort
under six feet of soil
maman, je ne veut pas mourir