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So I'm sitting here at work during 3rd period with nothing to do for once. No classes to teach, no studying to do, and for the moment, no immediate stresses (until 5 minutes from now, of course) So I called my shrink's office to leave a message about my panic attacks that are still happening to frequently for me to not do something about it. Than I decided to take the time to update this journal.
Not too much to report, really. I got into nursing school, had orientation, and found out an overwhelming amount of info and things I need to do before Jun 1 when my nursing classes start. Nursing students have to get malpractice insurance?! What is the world coming to when people want to sue everyone so easily? I also have to get a physical, a bunch of shots, a drug test, a dental exam, plus my uniforms and nursing equipment. Lord, where is the money going to come from? I applied for a student loan, but haven't heard yet whether I got it or not.
I really want to rant about something my mother said to me, but since both she & my sister read this LJ, I feel the need to censor myself. What kind of journal is this when I feel I can't speak my mind because of some people who read my thoughts? I'll say only one thing. Two people don't have to be married for them and a child to be considered a family. Emotional support and commitment can mean just as much as anything else. Am I right? Who's with me?
On another note, I've been trying really hard to eat better and exercise because I really want to be able to fit back into my favorite pants. I've been doing pretty well about not snacking, though right now I find myself always hungry. I feel like I'm not getting enough to eat because I'm so used to eating as much as I want. I just have to get used to eating smaller amounts. But I'm eating 3 meals a day now, so instead of one big meal late at night I'm spacing it out, which is good. Go me! Now let's see if I can keep it up and lose a few pounds.
I guess Dez and I are planning on coming out to karaoke for a little while tonight. It's good to get out sometimes, though I really could care less if we're out or at home, as long as we're in the same place.
My mood swings are doing okay now. They're still violent when they do happen, either way up or way down, angry or sad, but also now that the weather's getting nicer, there are times where I have very happy mood swings too. And that's a really good feeling.
Well, I have to go track down a teacher.
Bye.
Not too much to report, really. I got into nursing school, had orientation, and found out an overwhelming amount of info and things I need to do before Jun 1 when my nursing classes start. Nursing students have to get malpractice insurance?! What is the world coming to when people want to sue everyone so easily? I also have to get a physical, a bunch of shots, a drug test, a dental exam, plus my uniforms and nursing equipment. Lord, where is the money going to come from? I applied for a student loan, but haven't heard yet whether I got it or not.
I really want to rant about something my mother said to me, but since both she & my sister read this LJ, I feel the need to censor myself. What kind of journal is this when I feel I can't speak my mind because of some people who read my thoughts? I'll say only one thing. Two people don't have to be married for them and a child to be considered a family. Emotional support and commitment can mean just as much as anything else. Am I right? Who's with me?
On another note, I've been trying really hard to eat better and exercise because I really want to be able to fit back into my favorite pants. I've been doing pretty well about not snacking, though right now I find myself always hungry. I feel like I'm not getting enough to eat because I'm so used to eating as much as I want. I just have to get used to eating smaller amounts. But I'm eating 3 meals a day now, so instead of one big meal late at night I'm spacing it out, which is good. Go me! Now let's see if I can keep it up and lose a few pounds.
I guess Dez and I are planning on coming out to karaoke for a little while tonight. It's good to get out sometimes, though I really could care less if we're out or at home, as long as we're in the same place.
My mood swings are doing okay now. They're still violent when they do happen, either way up or way down, angry or sad, but also now that the weather's getting nicer, there are times where I have very happy mood swings too. And that's a really good feeling.
Well, I have to go track down a teacher.
Bye.