[He was with standing close by after humoring the drone to be the good father he tried to be, but he too noticed the eye that made Koishi and her sister different. Once the droned daughter had left, he made his way to find Satori and Utsuho-- and was only able to find one of them after hearing those quiet words.]
He lowered his head and closed his eyes for a moment when he took in a deep breath.]
[He'll reach out to pat her head and lower himself to eye-to-eye level with her.]
You may think so, but I can see you are trying so hard. You're trying to not let the pain and the loss get to you, which makes you strong. This isn't easy, I know this. But it's not wrong to feel like the way you are now either... but we must keep our heads still high and face whatever comes next at us.
Satori, can you honestly tell me this is what your sister would have wanted if she were to see you like this? You and your sister are good people. Strong people. I can just see it with your heart on how you are acting right now that I am not wrong. If you honestly felt nothing, then I would be worried-- but you must keep going on for Koishi's sake. Maybe she will return again or you will return to her... whichever comes first would be the same end result: you two will eventually be reunited again. You must be strong until then... can you do this?
[The words are bitter, and Satori spits them like poison. She squeezes her eyes shut, holding back a fresh wave of tears, and then continues:]
...You're right, of course, but this is too much. Before, it was different. I knew Koishi wasn't here. I knew she was...somewhere in Gensokyo. Somewhere familiar and somewhere she could explore and enjoy herself.
But now I don't know. I don't know if this is her or if it's just an empty shell. I don't know if I'll ever see my sister again. You can say we'll be reunited, but do you really know that for certain? Of course not. There's no way of knowing.
I want to be strong for her, but I can't. I'm a failure as a sister once again.
She has gotten a chance to smile and enjoy herself. Is that not something to be happy for as a sister? I may not know too much details, but she was able to enjoy her life here... and nothing can say that is a lie. Granted, being here of all places is not one I would call paradise for a lot of people, but it is for the fewer number of people. That's what I like to think.
[He raises a sleeve to brush the tears away from her eyes that had begun to form and rested his forehead against hers.]
And you're right. We do not know for certain, but it's better to believe that you can and will rather than abandon hope, don't you think? Whether it be a shell or it is your sister, only you would know the truth of that, wouldn't you? And I don't mean by reading her mind-- you as her family would know. If you just keep that hope up and have that belief, I am absolutely positive that you and your sister will reunite again even if the gods deny you.
[He gives her a warm smile. It almost felt exactly how he and his brother were forcibly torn apart by
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It's hard to abandon hope when you don't have it in the first place. It would be just my luck if I never saw her again. Because this - thing, right now, is not my sister. I don't know what it is, but it isn't Koishi.
...As for what I'm going to do, I have no idea. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Part of me wants to make the people in charge suffer. Part of me doesn't want to do anything.
[She trembles in his embrace, and a few tears slip past her eyelids. Even now, there's a part of her still trying not to cry, even though there's a greater part of her that's trying to do exactly what Enkidu suggested.]
[Enkidu nods his head when she whispers those words and just keeps her in his hold until she believes that she is feeling better. He just continues to rub her back with one hand and pat behind her head with the other.
He never really felt this way towards anyway, save for Gilgamesh and Ninsun, but to actually grow close to people not even blood related to him like this... seeing her in tears made him upset, but he wished to be the pillar of support she has at least here. He knew what it was like to be alone in a hell all too well.
He'd probably never be able to have a family, to have a wife and children, of his own. But if this little girl whom was with him since his arrival here and not only accepted the fact that he is here to stay but that he had a role here in this household, he'll fulfill in obligation to that role. But now? It's because he wants to be the father figure to her. Even if she doesn't see him as such, he'll be there to support his daughter
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[He was with standing close by after humoring the drone to be the good father he tried to be, but he too noticed the eye that made Koishi and her sister different. Once the droned daughter had left, he made his way to find Satori and Utsuho-- and was only able to find one of them after hearing those quiet words.]
He lowered his head and closed his eyes for a moment when he took in a deep breath.]
... you're a very strong girl.
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You may think so, but I can see you are trying so hard. You're trying to not let the pain and the loss get to you, which makes you strong. This isn't easy, I know this. But it's not wrong to feel like the way you are now either... but we must keep our heads still high and face whatever comes next at us.
Satori, can you honestly tell me this is what your sister would have wanted if she were to see you like this? You and your sister are good people. Strong people. I can just see it with your heart on how you are acting right now that I am not wrong. If you honestly felt nothing, then I would be worried-- but you must keep going on for Koishi's sake. Maybe she will return again or you will return to her... whichever comes first would be the same end result: you two will eventually be reunited again. You must be strong until then... can you do this?
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[The words are bitter, and Satori spits them like poison. She squeezes her eyes shut, holding back a fresh wave of tears, and then continues:]
...You're right, of course, but this is too much. Before, it was different. I knew Koishi wasn't here. I knew she was...somewhere in Gensokyo. Somewhere familiar and somewhere she could explore and enjoy herself.
But now I don't know. I don't know if this is her or if it's just an empty shell. I don't know if I'll ever see my sister again. You can say we'll be reunited, but do you really know that for certain? Of course not. There's no way of knowing.
I want to be strong for her, but I can't. I'm a failure as a sister once again.
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[He raises a sleeve to brush the tears away from her eyes that had begun to form and rested his forehead against hers.]
And you're right. We do not know for certain, but it's better to believe that you can and will rather than abandon hope, don't you think? Whether it be a shell or it is your sister, only you would know the truth of that, wouldn't you? And I don't mean by reading her mind-- you as her family would know. If you just keep that hope up and have that belief, I am absolutely positive that you and your sister will reunite again even if the gods deny you.
[He gives her a warm smile. It almost felt exactly how he and his brother were forcibly torn apart by ( ... )
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...As for what I'm going to do, I have no idea. I don't know what I'm supposed to do. Part of me wants to make the people in charge suffer. Part of me doesn't want to do anything.
...What do you think I should do?
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... just let it all out. Let everything out... that's what I think you should do first.
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[She trembles in his embrace, and a few tears slip past her eyelids. Even now, there's a part of her still trying not to cry, even though there's a greater part of her that's trying to do exactly what Enkidu suggested.]
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He never really felt this way towards anyway, save for Gilgamesh and Ninsun, but to actually grow close to people not even blood related to him like this... seeing her in tears made him upset, but he wished to be the pillar of support she has at least here. He knew what it was like to be alone in a hell all too well.
He'd probably never be able to have a family, to have a wife and children, of his own. But if this little girl whom was with him since his arrival here and not only accepted the fact that he is here to stay but that he had a role here in this household, he'll fulfill in obligation to that role. But now? It's because he wants to be the father figure to her. Even if she doesn't see him as such, he'll be there to support his daughter ( ... )
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