trying to hold it all inside (just for tonight)
Life is life right now. Nothing really exciting is happening right now. Warped Tour is next Saturday and I can't freaking wait. It's going to be soo much fun. I still have to buy my ticket..lol. Work is being a pain in the butt. I got yelled at yesterday for not smiling when half of the other cashiers never smile. I got asked about my availability because the assistant customer service manager doesn't know how to deal with stress.
In all honesty, I'm so lonely. I'm beyond lonely and I know what to do about it, but I'm too afraid to do it. Of course I'm talking about guys. I always talk about guys because in high school I rarely opened my mouth about guys. There is this kid at work who is really cute :) He's only a year younger than me and that's a rare thing at work because most of them are in high school or just graduated. His name is John and he is such a stoner. He's funny, though. We were talking about all kinds of stuff while he was bagging for me. But it still doesn't change the fact that I'm really lonely.
This is what I want: I want someone to hold me, like me and possibly one day love me, I want to be told that I'm the most beautiful girl in the world, I want something to hold on to, I want something real, I want that one perfect guy that I know in my heart is perfect and true.
Is that too much to ask?
I'm trying not to look for it because you know they say it'll come when you least expect it. I'm definetly not expecting it anytime soon, but that doesn't stop me from wanting it so badly it hurts.
I need something that'll fill the empty space
the empty space that's slowly taking over and filling up
my heart, mind, body, and soul
making the empty space spill over into reality
where all I can do to fill the empty space
is fake it and never be real, even in my own reality
In all honesty, I'm so lonely. I'm beyond lonely and I know what to do about it, but I'm too afraid to do it. Of course I'm talking about guys. I always talk about guys because in high school I rarely opened my mouth about guys. There is this kid at work who is really cute :) He's only a year younger than me and that's a rare thing at work because most of them are in high school or just graduated. His name is John and he is such a stoner. He's funny, though. We were talking about all kinds of stuff while he was bagging for me. But it still doesn't change the fact that I'm really lonely.
This is what I want: I want someone to hold me, like me and possibly one day love me, I want to be told that I'm the most beautiful girl in the world, I want something to hold on to, I want something real, I want that one perfect guy that I know in my heart is perfect and true.
Is that too much to ask?
I'm trying not to look for it because you know they say it'll come when you least expect it. I'm definetly not expecting it anytime soon, but that doesn't stop me from wanting it so badly it hurts.
I need something that'll fill the empty space
the empty space that's slowly taking over and filling up
my heart, mind, body, and soul
making the empty space spill over into reality
where all I can do to fill the empty space
is fake it and never be real, even in my own reality