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the last 2 weeks have been really insane. after my mom died i had to go take care of everything about her cremation. they asked me if i wanted to be there for when they did it, and i thought about doing it. i didn't really get to see her before she died, and i really wish i had. but i decided not to, i don't think i could have handled it.
my family seems to think my mother's death was a hinderance. her mass is set for february 25th, a full month and a half AFTER her death. the reason? they're too busy with their own vacations and other things to make time for her. they never could make time for her. it hurts to know that even in her death they dont have the time to give her the recognition she deserved. and even now, the mass is not just about her now, but about my grandfather too, who died 5 years ago on february 26th. it sickens me, a lot. she deserves much better than that.
i've spent a lot of time just sitting around thinking. its been really hard dealing with it all, and ive broken down quite a bit because of it. i'm really thankful for having laura, because she's made it so much easier on me to deal with all this thats going on. she and her parents both sent me condolence cards for my mom, the only people who seem to care besides me and my brother and father. (by the way, thanks buttercup ily.)
i really miss hanging out with my friends, new and old. it hurts sometimes when no one seems to have the time for me, either. i don't really ask for too much, just a little company every now and then.
oh well. i'll deal like always.
okay enough whining. i just needed to kinda get that out.
ps lrn the format are my new favorite band.
my family seems to think my mother's death was a hinderance. her mass is set for february 25th, a full month and a half AFTER her death. the reason? they're too busy with their own vacations and other things to make time for her. they never could make time for her. it hurts to know that even in her death they dont have the time to give her the recognition she deserved. and even now, the mass is not just about her now, but about my grandfather too, who died 5 years ago on february 26th. it sickens me, a lot. she deserves much better than that.
i've spent a lot of time just sitting around thinking. its been really hard dealing with it all, and ive broken down quite a bit because of it. i'm really thankful for having laura, because she's made it so much easier on me to deal with all this thats going on. she and her parents both sent me condolence cards for my mom, the only people who seem to care besides me and my brother and father. (by the way, thanks buttercup ily.)
i really miss hanging out with my friends, new and old. it hurts sometimes when no one seems to have the time for me, either. i don't really ask for too much, just a little company every now and then.
oh well. i'll deal like always.
okay enough whining. i just needed to kinda get that out.
ps lrn the format are my new favorite band.