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new years resolution...
**stop looking for love.....let it find me.**
what did i do on news year eve? same thing i do every year (except that one year). i rented movies and curled up in bed and cursed the fuckers upstairs when they lit firecrackers and threw them over the balcony at midnight..scaring the shit outta me and my cats...and proceeded to pound their bass til 2:30am...
new years day..my favorite niece's bday..so after everyone left her party..we of course..played games...her..myself..her bestfriend..and my sister played balderdash..and my sister..at one point..had me in tears of laughter.
my aunt had her surgery to remove her lump (putting it mildly)..she is doing ok..just waiting to hear her results (crossing her fingers)..but i'm scared to death for her..she is awesome..and ..ugh..i dont even want to think about it.
school has become an issue lately..cant seem to find the motivation to want to do work anymore. i'm truly burnt out. this class was supposed to be one of my favorites 'marketing' and i find myself sitting here writing this entry instead of not writing a second paper for this class and accepting the fact that i will get my first "C" instead of my usual A or B ...I've got less than a year left and i just cant seem to focus on the goal anymore...thats why i made the afore mentioned new years resolution..because chasing love has really distracted me...
more than that..girls in general.. i let myself get so wrapped up in them that i cant even think straight..concentrate..focus..anything...people have noticed my shutting myself down....closing myself off..and they dont like it..but i pretty much have to..not only to not get hurt..but to function if i dont want some girl to distract me from school...its one thing if i'm in a relationship with someone..its all good..i can focus..but when some chic is just playing games with me..forget it..my head is screwed...
so..i'll take my "C" ..as a punishment to myself for letting me get off course...for letting me get distracted...
speaking of girls...navy girl update..i took another hard blow to the proverbial gut..shame on me right? it seems so stupid..we were never in any kind of relationship..and i have never been anything more to her than a friend...that became painfully clear just the other day...sometimes i guess you just need a smack in the face to help you realize it..metaphorically speaking...k..this topic is making me nauseus..
i'm thinking of becoming a monk..celebicy..silence..far away from everyone..sounds good right?
**stop looking for love.....let it find me.**
what did i do on news year eve? same thing i do every year (except that one year). i rented movies and curled up in bed and cursed the fuckers upstairs when they lit firecrackers and threw them over the balcony at midnight..scaring the shit outta me and my cats...and proceeded to pound their bass til 2:30am...
new years day..my favorite niece's bday..so after everyone left her party..we of course..played games...her..myself..her bestfriend..and my sister played balderdash..and my sister..at one point..had me in tears of laughter.
my aunt had her surgery to remove her lump (putting it mildly)..she is doing ok..just waiting to hear her results (crossing her fingers)..but i'm scared to death for her..she is awesome..and ..ugh..i dont even want to think about it.
school has become an issue lately..cant seem to find the motivation to want to do work anymore. i'm truly burnt out. this class was supposed to be one of my favorites 'marketing' and i find myself sitting here writing this entry instead of not writing a second paper for this class and accepting the fact that i will get my first "C" instead of my usual A or B ...I've got less than a year left and i just cant seem to focus on the goal anymore...thats why i made the afore mentioned new years resolution..because chasing love has really distracted me...
more than that..girls in general.. i let myself get so wrapped up in them that i cant even think straight..concentrate..focus..anything...people have noticed my shutting myself down....closing myself off..and they dont like it..but i pretty much have to..not only to not get hurt..but to function if i dont want some girl to distract me from school...its one thing if i'm in a relationship with someone..its all good..i can focus..but when some chic is just playing games with me..forget it..my head is screwed...
so..i'll take my "C" ..as a punishment to myself for letting me get off course...for letting me get distracted...
speaking of girls...navy girl update..i took another hard blow to the proverbial gut..shame on me right? it seems so stupid..we were never in any kind of relationship..and i have never been anything more to her than a friend...that became painfully clear just the other day...sometimes i guess you just need a smack in the face to help you realize it..metaphorically speaking...k..this topic is making me nauseus..
i'm thinking of becoming a monk..celebicy..silence..far away from everyone..sounds good right?