Fight night
I know what I should tell myself I should want for myself
but deep down
I fight it
I want what I had but better
I want something else but
I refuse to believe its obtained the way they say it is
I fight it
Why cant it just be
why cant it just be her
why cant it just be me.
because its not - and it may never be
and even in saying that
I fight it
i add the word may just in case
just in case she changes her mind
because never is too real
never is what I need to start getting comfortable with but
I fight it.