When is a Good Time 1/?
This is my second criminal minds fic and my first chapter fic. I'm not sure exactly where this is going yet. I own nothing and no infringement is intended. This will be slightly off canon (besides the obvious femslash. It picks up around the time of episode JJ and will go through from there. There will be changes to the Doyle storyline from the show. I hope you enjoy.
'I can't take this anymore.' Thought JJ as Will continued to labor over her. She lie there and tried to act as if she were enjoying herself and knew that she would spend another night faking an orgasm and doing what she could to have him come as quickly as possible. She hoped that the movements she made seemed to him as if she was caught in the moment rather than her body's desperate desire to get away from him. She realized that she couldn't fake it anymore. He just didn't feel right. The longer that she was with Will the more she realized that the body hair was too coarse, the skin to rough, and she avoided his touch as much as possible. She had finally resorted to fantasy to get her through the sex and would often try to be on top so that she was in control of how much of her body came in to contact with his. She was able to fantasize more easily from that position and have some chance at something for herself but tonight he had wanted to be on top.
She realized that this had been developing since the beginning of their relationship, probably even her whole life. She knew that even though she had escaped East Alleghany that there was still a great deal of her home in her. She had disappointed her parents enough with her leaving home and her career choices. She never really knew when she was younger what her feelings for other women meant; there was never a name or label she had attached to them. While she had not been attracted to men, she hadn't realized her interest in her friends was more than normal. She had not thought about sex with her friends. It was much later that she realized that she was a lesbian. She started to watch lesbian centered TV shows, movies, and to read lesbian themed eBooks. This was when she had her true revelation of herself. JJ often laughed at herself, 'some special agent I am, I couldn't even detect that I was truly gay until I was pregnant with my son.'
"I love you Jay…" Will called out as he finally found his release. JJ quickly left the bed to clean up and was relieved to find him asleep when she returned. Will was not the first man that JJ had been with but he was the only one that she had actually developed a long term relationship with. Even that relationship had it limits in the beginning. She had able to safely place boundaries on them due to the distance in the places they resided. She had tried to break it off in Miami but between Emily pushing her toward him and the genuine sorrow she had seen in Will as he dealt with her rejection and his friend's death, she had caved. After she found out she was pregnant, she felt trapped. It would be unfair to her child and Will if she had broken it off then. Sleep did not come to her that night as she thought about what she would need to do. She hated what leaving him would do to Henry and to Will. As far as he was concerned things were okay between them. 'Maybe I'll just stay with him; it would be easier and cause less pain to everyone. I'm on the road so much; I can keep going this way.'
'I can't take this anymore.' Thought JJ as Will continued to labor over her. She lie there and tried to act as if she were enjoying herself and knew that she would spend another night faking an orgasm and doing what she could to have him come as quickly as possible. She hoped that the movements she made seemed to him as if she was caught in the moment rather than her body's desperate desire to get away from him. She realized that she couldn't fake it anymore. He just didn't feel right. The longer that she was with Will the more she realized that the body hair was too coarse, the skin to rough, and she avoided his touch as much as possible. She had finally resorted to fantasy to get her through the sex and would often try to be on top so that she was in control of how much of her body came in to contact with his. She was able to fantasize more easily from that position and have some chance at something for herself but tonight he had wanted to be on top.
She realized that this had been developing since the beginning of their relationship, probably even her whole life. She knew that even though she had escaped East Alleghany that there was still a great deal of her home in her. She had disappointed her parents enough with her leaving home and her career choices. She never really knew when she was younger what her feelings for other women meant; there was never a name or label she had attached to them. While she had not been attracted to men, she hadn't realized her interest in her friends was more than normal. She had not thought about sex with her friends. It was much later that she realized that she was a lesbian. She started to watch lesbian centered TV shows, movies, and to read lesbian themed eBooks. This was when she had her true revelation of herself. JJ often laughed at herself, 'some special agent I am, I couldn't even detect that I was truly gay until I was pregnant with my son.'
"I love you Jay…" Will called out as he finally found his release. JJ quickly left the bed to clean up and was relieved to find him asleep when she returned. Will was not the first man that JJ had been with but he was the only one that she had actually developed a long term relationship with. Even that relationship had it limits in the beginning. She had able to safely place boundaries on them due to the distance in the places they resided. She had tried to break it off in Miami but between Emily pushing her toward him and the genuine sorrow she had seen in Will as he dealt with her rejection and his friend's death, she had caved. After she found out she was pregnant, she felt trapped. It would be unfair to her child and Will if she had broken it off then. Sleep did not come to her that night as she thought about what she would need to do. She hated what leaving him would do to Henry and to Will. As far as he was concerned things were okay between them. 'Maybe I'll just stay with him; it would be easier and cause less pain to everyone. I'm on the road so much; I can keep going this way.'