2 go or not 2 go....
"Pagan Pride" day is tomorrow.
I'm debating on going. On one hand, i think most serious pagans are insane. But then again, i think most people are insane. But then again again, i think insanity is the path to happiness.
I like the symbols they use. I like the balance. I like the history and the new take on old things. I like the connectivity to nature. I love the non-dogma. But...
I....don't believe. I can't. It's not my nature to actually believe these things exist outside of myself. I see the "Gods" and the "Goddesses" as parts of myself. with no external bearing. I'm fundimentally somewhat of an athiest....except i think "God" or "the source" or "the force" or whatever have you IS existance itself and is impossible to comprehend. But i surely don't think that it's human circumstance based.
So i'm debating on going. I see there is an "order of the olive tree" group there. I'm big into Athenian Stuff..........so...i might check them out. I'm big into the spiritual nature of humanity in all of it's ways. And i'm really NOT big on cookie cutter dogmatic "my size fits all" perspective on such spirituality.
And quite frankly thinking or believing that there is an externalness to your god/gods/goddesses is just that. I'm right and your wrong.
God moves within each of our hearts. She knows them well. She IS our hearts. And she uses that language to guide us. INDIVIDUALLY. Whatever that may be. But it is still WITHIN us. And there is no telling someone else that their take on it is wrong.
You can tell someone they are wrong for the actions they commit....but not they way they are spiritual.
I...feel kind of bad for that. Cause it's easy to sterotype christians.........but...they are not different either. Not fundementally. And I was a fool for thinking so. And it's easy to form barriers to define ones self the way one wants too.
What's hard is breaking them down to realise that......one is all....and all is one.
Either way, i'm going to let the universe take the reigns and "sleep on it". I if i wake up in time....i'll go. if not....i won't. It's a cowards way. I'm avoiding responciblity....but...who says that wasn't supposed to happen.
It's all meaningless anyway. Meainingless and Important. Nothingness and Everythingness. it's the clash of the two that creates existance.
I'm nothing special....and i'm also everything that is special.
I'm always seeking the truth. To my benifet and detriment.
*sigh*.....i wish it was just as easy as "that".
I'm debating on going. On one hand, i think most serious pagans are insane. But then again, i think most people are insane. But then again again, i think insanity is the path to happiness.
I like the symbols they use. I like the balance. I like the history and the new take on old things. I like the connectivity to nature. I love the non-dogma. But...
I....don't believe. I can't. It's not my nature to actually believe these things exist outside of myself. I see the "Gods" and the "Goddesses" as parts of myself. with no external bearing. I'm fundimentally somewhat of an athiest....except i think "God" or "the source" or "the force" or whatever have you IS existance itself and is impossible to comprehend. But i surely don't think that it's human circumstance based.
So i'm debating on going. I see there is an "order of the olive tree" group there. I'm big into Athenian Stuff..........so...i might check them out. I'm big into the spiritual nature of humanity in all of it's ways. And i'm really NOT big on cookie cutter dogmatic "my size fits all" perspective on such spirituality.
And quite frankly thinking or believing that there is an externalness to your god/gods/goddesses is just that. I'm right and your wrong.
God moves within each of our hearts. She knows them well. She IS our hearts. And she uses that language to guide us. INDIVIDUALLY. Whatever that may be. But it is still WITHIN us. And there is no telling someone else that their take on it is wrong.
You can tell someone they are wrong for the actions they commit....but not they way they are spiritual.
I...feel kind of bad for that. Cause it's easy to sterotype christians.........but...they are not different either. Not fundementally. And I was a fool for thinking so. And it's easy to form barriers to define ones self the way one wants too.
What's hard is breaking them down to realise that......one is all....and all is one.
Either way, i'm going to let the universe take the reigns and "sleep on it". I if i wake up in time....i'll go. if not....i won't. It's a cowards way. I'm avoiding responciblity....but...who says that wasn't supposed to happen.
It's all meaningless anyway. Meainingless and Important. Nothingness and Everythingness. it's the clash of the two that creates existance.
I'm nothing special....and i'm also everything that is special.
I'm always seeking the truth. To my benifet and detriment.
*sigh*.....i wish it was just as easy as "that".