Wow
I haven't been reading my friends page at ALL. I'm really sorry for that. I have been so stressed lately, and have had no time for anything. In fact, I have to get off the computer in like 3 minutes so that I can go to this seminar thing for a job I might do...It's a work at home job doing medical transcriptions...And though that doesn't sound very exciting, the schedule would be very flexible, I'd get to work in my PJs, and I wouldn't have to drive to Englewood...So I'm going to check it out tonight, see what they say, see if there are benefits, etc...
But seriously, I have been falling apart. So stressed out, like, to the point of no return. I don't know what to do with myself. I'll be perfectly fine, then suddenly I'll be completely depressed, wishing I could go home and curl up on my bed forever and just sleep. Honestly, sometimes I seriously think it would be so much easier to go and take a bottle of aspirin and be done with it. (Though, I don't ever do it, I'm too chicken.) I don't understand what's wrong with me, but it's not good anymore. And my stupid doctor just goes, "Here, try this med, here, try this med," and they work for 3 weeks, and then stop working, and I'm back where I started, and in some cases, worse than I was before. I just don't know what to do with myself.
My mom thinks it's my thyroid. That would make sense. My parents both have high thyroidism and my sister has low, so it runs in the family. And that would explain why I've been gaining so much weight even though I eat well and exercise. And it would explain the exhaustion (even though I get enough sleep and I drink lots of water) and the depression...It would explain all of it. I had a thyroid blood test done a few months ago and it was negative, but apparently, that's not a very reliable way to check the thyroid. So my mom is going to try to find someone who can approach it some different way...Probably some woo woo way that I'm not sure I totally believe in. But I guess it wouldn't hurt to try.
Another thing is that I think I've been so stressed out, I've been totally ignoring my spirituality. And I don't think that's helping either.
Shit. I have to get going. Traffic is horrible out there and I need to get to that seminar thing.
Talk to you later.
But seriously, I have been falling apart. So stressed out, like, to the point of no return. I don't know what to do with myself. I'll be perfectly fine, then suddenly I'll be completely depressed, wishing I could go home and curl up on my bed forever and just sleep. Honestly, sometimes I seriously think it would be so much easier to go and take a bottle of aspirin and be done with it. (Though, I don't ever do it, I'm too chicken.) I don't understand what's wrong with me, but it's not good anymore. And my stupid doctor just goes, "Here, try this med, here, try this med," and they work for 3 weeks, and then stop working, and I'm back where I started, and in some cases, worse than I was before. I just don't know what to do with myself.
My mom thinks it's my thyroid. That would make sense. My parents both have high thyroidism and my sister has low, so it runs in the family. And that would explain why I've been gaining so much weight even though I eat well and exercise. And it would explain the exhaustion (even though I get enough sleep and I drink lots of water) and the depression...It would explain all of it. I had a thyroid blood test done a few months ago and it was negative, but apparently, that's not a very reliable way to check the thyroid. So my mom is going to try to find someone who can approach it some different way...Probably some woo woo way that I'm not sure I totally believe in. But I guess it wouldn't hurt to try.
Another thing is that I think I've been so stressed out, I've been totally ignoring my spirituality. And I don't think that's helping either.
Shit. I have to get going. Traffic is horrible out there and I need to get to that seminar thing.
Talk to you later.