1/9/08
So we didn't discuss it last night...he was too tired, and i didn't have the heart (or balls) to push the issue.
I feel better today, although, like i said in my 'journal' last night, I'm sure if I could just cry, really cry, i'd be okay. It's hard to explain what i mean....I've spent so long telling myself not to cry, that I could cry later, that all my tears have been deferred. For the last eight or nine years. Nine? Something like that. No tears...not about that. I'm sure If I could just make myself cry, i'd be okay.
I feel better today, although, like i said in my 'journal' last night, I'm sure if I could just cry, really cry, i'd be okay. It's hard to explain what i mean....I've spent so long telling myself not to cry, that I could cry later, that all my tears have been deferred. For the last eight or nine years. Nine? Something like that. No tears...not about that. I'm sure If I could just make myself cry, i'd be okay.