One day down
the rest of my life to go.
He was supposed to call me yesterday. Guess what, he didn't. And I wasn't surprised. However - I didn't contact him either, in any way - I didn't call, I didn't send any emails, I didn't text him, nothing. It was harder after I brought my son to his fathers for his visitation, being totally alone goves me WAY too much opportunity to think - but it helped that I talked to this guy I haven't seen in like 25 years - ran into him at a local bakery when I was picking up some "pity party for me" sweets. We talked for a few minutes then he gave me his cell # because he was on his way to a private party. He has his own catering business, pretty cool shit there. Anyway, he asked me to call him because he said he'd like to talk more on his way to where he was going...so I did. Turns out we have a bunch of things in common - although I don't think I will tell him that back in the day I had the BIGGEST crush on him...so we talked for about a half hour as he was driving. Then he called me back when he left his gig and said that he was thinking of asking me to meet him for coffee but it was so late and by the time he got back to this area it would be REALLY late -personally I wouldn't have cared, Denny's IS open 24/7 LOL - but he sounded tired so...he mentioned maybe getting together Monday so I guess we'll just wait and see what happens. No, I'm NOT looking to jump into another relationship - hell I can't straighten out the one I'm currently in, nevermind add a new one to the mix - but it was nice to talk to someone who seemed genuinely interested in me and not because he could get somethingout of me.
Then my best friend called and we talked for over an hour - she's having some of the same "lack of communication" issues with her sorta SO that I am with Doug soit was good to commisurate...plus she's been so busy with school that we haven't talked like that in a really long time. It was good to re-connect with her. {I know you're reading this, silly goose, and just know that I love ya and no matter WHERE you go, what you end up doing or with whom, you'll always be the sister of my heart}.
By the time I got off the phone it was almost time for bed - I was pretty damned droopy - but I was also rather proud of myself for not giving in and contacting him. And today's gameplan is:
**Go grocery shopping with my friend Michelle (can't call her my sister in law since I got divorced but we still talk and stuff)
** come home, Put everything away
**take down curtains in family room, and while they're being washed fix the curtain rod holder thingies by screwing them into the wall instead of nailing them; just gotta find the right screws
**take down everything on living room walls, pull down the rest of the horribly old wallpaper and maybe lightly sand a section - I fully intend to paint the living room/hallway a deep wine color and maybe take a cue from LunaGypsy and throw some gold or silver sponging or something over it {yeah, seeing all the pictures in your LJ of your fabulous decorating has inspired me, girl!}.
**MAYBE make a trip to Home Depot to check out color samples
I figure once all of that is completed, it should be almost time for my son to get home and he's always good for distraction purposes. I honestly don't know when or what time Doug is bringing Dave back, I told Dave that I was betting on Monday but he seemed to think it would be sometime today. Either way,I have things to do and I'm gonna do them, damn it.
And maybe I'll be able to get through another day of no contact.
He was supposed to call me yesterday. Guess what, he didn't. And I wasn't surprised. However - I didn't contact him either, in any way - I didn't call, I didn't send any emails, I didn't text him, nothing. It was harder after I brought my son to his fathers for his visitation, being totally alone goves me WAY too much opportunity to think - but it helped that I talked to this guy I haven't seen in like 25 years - ran into him at a local bakery when I was picking up some "pity party for me" sweets. We talked for a few minutes then he gave me his cell # because he was on his way to a private party. He has his own catering business, pretty cool shit there. Anyway, he asked me to call him because he said he'd like to talk more on his way to where he was going...so I did. Turns out we have a bunch of things in common - although I don't think I will tell him that back in the day I had the BIGGEST crush on him...so we talked for about a half hour as he was driving. Then he called me back when he left his gig and said that he was thinking of asking me to meet him for coffee but it was so late and by the time he got back to this area it would be REALLY late -personally I wouldn't have cared, Denny's IS open 24/7 LOL - but he sounded tired so...he mentioned maybe getting together Monday so I guess we'll just wait and see what happens. No, I'm NOT looking to jump into another relationship - hell I can't straighten out the one I'm currently in, nevermind add a new one to the mix - but it was nice to talk to someone who seemed genuinely interested in me and not because he could get somethingout of me.
Then my best friend called and we talked for over an hour - she's having some of the same "lack of communication" issues with her sorta SO that I am with Doug soit was good to commisurate...plus she's been so busy with school that we haven't talked like that in a really long time. It was good to re-connect with her. {I know you're reading this, silly goose, and just know that I love ya and no matter WHERE you go, what you end up doing or with whom, you'll always be the sister of my heart}.
By the time I got off the phone it was almost time for bed - I was pretty damned droopy - but I was also rather proud of myself for not giving in and contacting him. And today's gameplan is:
**Go grocery shopping with my friend Michelle (can't call her my sister in law since I got divorced but we still talk and stuff)
** come home, Put everything away
**take down curtains in family room, and while they're being washed fix the curtain rod holder thingies by screwing them into the wall instead of nailing them; just gotta find the right screws
**take down everything on living room walls, pull down the rest of the horribly old wallpaper and maybe lightly sand a section - I fully intend to paint the living room/hallway a deep wine color and maybe take a cue from LunaGypsy and throw some gold or silver sponging or something over it {yeah, seeing all the pictures in your LJ of your fabulous decorating has inspired me, girl!}.
**MAYBE make a trip to Home Depot to check out color samples
I figure once all of that is completed, it should be almost time for my son to get home and he's always good for distraction purposes. I honestly don't know when or what time Doug is bringing Dave back, I told Dave that I was betting on Monday but he seemed to think it would be sometime today. Either way,I have things to do and I'm gonna do them, damn it.
And maybe I'll be able to get through another day of no contact.