Washing the Garage
I can best compare it to washing the garage. To get it ready for a nice new coat of white paint.
We start by scraping off all of the old, crumbly paint and see the bare wood underneath. Next we sand it down to make it smooth and soft to the touch. We take a bucket of clean warm water and wash clothe and remove all the dirt and impurities from the wall. Prime is applied to the bare wood, those areas that need a little more work. Finally we are able to put a new coat of pure white paint on and let it dry in the warm afternoon sun.
It was just one time too many. One more time he was late for something...add it to the times he's forgotten or whatever and I couldn't take it anymore. The power in his building went out and as such his alarm did not go off. He did not wake up on time. He slept in and did not wake up until roughly 12:45. He was supposed to be at my house at 11 am. I called and called and called to see what was going on, but of course he left his phone in the living room so that wasn't waking him up either. I was frustrated. Perhaps I took it a little too far when I just let him have it once he did get to my place. I told him that I deserve better than this.
I talked to him later, excited and happy because well I was willing to work at it too. I have my problems...I've lacked joy and relaxation in my life with no work so to speak and living at home. He stopped me in my tracks and told me that he had been thinking about what I had said and agreed that I deserve better, that he hasn't been his best lately. He feels the best course of action would be to take a break for a while. And a real good break, not just a few days and then everything is back to normal.
Which leads us to the the current course of action for Adam and Me and Garage washing reference.
I will go off to Yellowstone to rediscover my childlike joy of working for the National Park Service. Here I will forget the harsh, bleek winter and step into a warm, loving, and beautiful spring. I will be happier, calmer and more laidback which will greatly improve the relationship.
Adam will stay behind. He will reclaim his reliability and "with it" attitude he so solidly displayed when we were first dating. He will also work on those things which he feels he needs to work on to not only make himself a better person for his own benefit, but a better boyfriend for mine.
By taking a break from the relationship, Adam feels that he will be able to work on these things and quickly, because he will not want to loose me. (He needs to work fast so he can get me back before another man takes me away).
He agrees that I deserve better than what he has been exhibiting recently
but both of us want it to be better from him, not just some other guy.
I mentioned the Army and he agreed he was better when he was in.
While the timing is not so great since I leave in exactly two weeks, I can appreciate what he had decided to do. I do truly love him and want to be with him since I can't see myself with anyone else physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally...grammatically speaking (sorry PoTC reference). It will be hard but who knows, it might be fun to fall in love with him all over again when he asks me to be his girlfriend (again).
So Adam and I will scrape off the dinginess of this, the hardest winter I, and consequently us, have ever faced and we will look forward to the warm cleansing water to wash our soul and a coat of glistening new paint upon our hearts and minds with which to make a fresh start.
We start by scraping off all of the old, crumbly paint and see the bare wood underneath. Next we sand it down to make it smooth and soft to the touch. We take a bucket of clean warm water and wash clothe and remove all the dirt and impurities from the wall. Prime is applied to the bare wood, those areas that need a little more work. Finally we are able to put a new coat of pure white paint on and let it dry in the warm afternoon sun.
It was just one time too many. One more time he was late for something...add it to the times he's forgotten or whatever and I couldn't take it anymore. The power in his building went out and as such his alarm did not go off. He did not wake up on time. He slept in and did not wake up until roughly 12:45. He was supposed to be at my house at 11 am. I called and called and called to see what was going on, but of course he left his phone in the living room so that wasn't waking him up either. I was frustrated. Perhaps I took it a little too far when I just let him have it once he did get to my place. I told him that I deserve better than this.
I talked to him later, excited and happy because well I was willing to work at it too. I have my problems...I've lacked joy and relaxation in my life with no work so to speak and living at home. He stopped me in my tracks and told me that he had been thinking about what I had said and agreed that I deserve better, that he hasn't been his best lately. He feels the best course of action would be to take a break for a while. And a real good break, not just a few days and then everything is back to normal.
Which leads us to the the current course of action for Adam and Me and Garage washing reference.
I will go off to Yellowstone to rediscover my childlike joy of working for the National Park Service. Here I will forget the harsh, bleek winter and step into a warm, loving, and beautiful spring. I will be happier, calmer and more laidback which will greatly improve the relationship.
Adam will stay behind. He will reclaim his reliability and "with it" attitude he so solidly displayed when we were first dating. He will also work on those things which he feels he needs to work on to not only make himself a better person for his own benefit, but a better boyfriend for mine.
By taking a break from the relationship, Adam feels that he will be able to work on these things and quickly, because he will not want to loose me. (He needs to work fast so he can get me back before another man takes me away).
He agrees that I deserve better than what he has been exhibiting recently
but both of us want it to be better from him, not just some other guy.
I mentioned the Army and he agreed he was better when he was in.
While the timing is not so great since I leave in exactly two weeks, I can appreciate what he had decided to do. I do truly love him and want to be with him since I can't see myself with anyone else physically, mentally, spiritually, emotionally...grammatically speaking (sorry PoTC reference). It will be hard but who knows, it might be fun to fall in love with him all over again when he asks me to be his girlfriend (again).
So Adam and I will scrape off the dinginess of this, the hardest winter I, and consequently us, have ever faced and we will look forward to the warm cleansing water to wash our soul and a coat of glistening new paint upon our hearts and minds with which to make a fresh start.