It is December, isn't it?
Bought presents for people today. Can't get in touch with Mina at all. And I've had both my teachers today tell me that I need to either switch majors, or go to a school that actually offers an illustration course.
And a part of me is not looking forward to this weekend. I'm going to open my mouth, and hope to God that I don't kill another friendship. I have that special skill, you know. I need to say it, but I'm afraid of the response, and yet I think it's best.
But the timing is the worst ever.
Plus side of today - got presents for one person out of the way, and bought a new pair of shoes. Hung out with Zac all day, which makes me feel better, since Kim stresses me out these days, and I've been feeling odd around Justin lately, which only makes my moodswings worse. Saw some super cute stuff at the local Japanese supermarket, and I'm determined to get them (Ziri needs new blankets anyway). Drew Gaia!Sasu pics, loved them, drew a few more.
Neg. side of today - worry, worry, did I mention worry? And, oh, not to mention lack of registering for classes next quarter. OMGWORRY! Kimmie called me preppy. Felt crummy for having lack of life outside of being student!zombie or worker!zombie. Looking forward to working on comics, hoping it happens soon.
I want to curl up in a corner, pump music into my ears, forget, fade away, maybe, just maybe, draw something. Write something. Do something constructive instead of spinning my wheels and wanting to hide under the covers and sleep forever. And I do mean sleep. The constant levels of exhaustion aren't fun.
Looking forward to Zac's birthday party, though. Not looking forward to seeing his parents, though. His mom makes me nervous. Crazy woman.
And a part of me is not looking forward to this weekend. I'm going to open my mouth, and hope to God that I don't kill another friendship. I have that special skill, you know. I need to say it, but I'm afraid of the response, and yet I think it's best.
But the timing is the worst ever.
Plus side of today - got presents for one person out of the way, and bought a new pair of shoes. Hung out with Zac all day, which makes me feel better, since Kim stresses me out these days, and I've been feeling odd around Justin lately, which only makes my moodswings worse. Saw some super cute stuff at the local Japanese supermarket, and I'm determined to get them (Ziri needs new blankets anyway). Drew Gaia!Sasu pics, loved them, drew a few more.
Neg. side of today - worry, worry, did I mention worry? And, oh, not to mention lack of registering for classes next quarter. OMGWORRY! Kimmie called me preppy. Felt crummy for having lack of life outside of being student!zombie or worker!zombie. Looking forward to working on comics, hoping it happens soon.
I want to curl up in a corner, pump music into my ears, forget, fade away, maybe, just maybe, draw something. Write something. Do something constructive instead of spinning my wheels and wanting to hide under the covers and sleep forever. And I do mean sleep. The constant levels of exhaustion aren't fun.
Looking forward to Zac's birthday party, though. Not looking forward to seeing his parents, though. His mom makes me nervous. Crazy woman.