I go on a mushy emotional ramble
Didn't get any sleep last night. Well, I did, but it was all so nightmare-ridden that I couldn't actually rest. Feel awful now. Tired, bored, and my shoulder is killing me.
Yeah...my left shoulder blade, I guess. Whenever I'm stressed or whatever, it starts aching really bad. Nothing ever works for it, I've had it my whole life.
*sigh* Not chilling with Craig today cause he has a thing to go to at tech school. :bummed: Guess I'll try to go catch up on my sleep all afternoon. It's funny, though. I'll sleep during the day to catch up what I missed the night before, then when I go to bed at night, I can't fall asleep again.
It would make more sense to just wait until I go to bed, but when I try that, my nightmares seem to be worse for some reason. They are beginning to change for some reason. During them, it feels like a normal dream, and nothing bad is happening, but then I wake up sweaty and terrified, unable to fall back asleep. It's stupid cause there isn't anything different happening in my life, and I'm not really stressed like I was earlier this year. I'm so confused. :confused:
*sigh* I really wish I could chill with Craig today. I know you guys probably think/have thought that we spend too much time with each other, it's only two days we haven't seen each other, we're obbsessed, etc. etc. Well, maybe some of that is true...but it doesn't matter. When I'm in his arms, I feel wanted and loved. I feel like no matter what happens, it's all going to end up okay because I have him and he has me. I feel warm and happy, and all my problems just don't seem to be as important anymore. It's hard to explain, but if you have ever really been in love with anyone and been held close by them, felt their heart beating against your body, and knowing that that heart is filled with love for you....I dunno, it's just really great to feel that way.
<3 I love Craig so much. <3
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In case you didn't catch it on my Xanga, here's my latest
Left Alone
Your love's kiss
Is like sweet bliss
The warmth of the love
To enfold you as a blanket
And hold you tight
Right through the night
But what happens if that
Love disappates?
Left in the cold
Left in the rain
My heart a broken plain
What happens if that love disappates
And you're left alone in the rain?
You'd say you always love them
Every drop of you with them
Your heart beat with the love
Of a thousand hearts
Until it began to fade away.
Left in the cold
Left in the rain
My heart a broken plain
What happens when your love fades 'way
And you're left alone in the rain?
Fights and grudges
Passion and lust
Those three little words
Broke your heart.
Mad in love
What happened here?
Where did that first love's kiss go?
Left in the rain
Left in the cold
What happens when your love doesn't stay?
What happens to your heart when
You have to say
Good-bye?
Me, I'd only rate it a 6/10.