Grumble grumble

[wolfg62]

I need something. I don't know what. But I can't keep feeling like this. I wish there was something I can do, but I can't ask someone to change their personality. I can't talk to them about how they are making me feel. My backbone is not strong enough. I feel attacked, vulnerable, wrong, little...but there is nothing I can do about it.

I want to smack something...punch it...kick it...destroy it...

I want to cry...I want to not be here...but I don't want to be anywhere else.

There's too much to say to even say it. And I can't repeat it all the times I'd need to. It's just a task that is basically impossible.