Birthday blues
Whinging and whining behind the cut nothing to see here feel free to move on to something more cheerful.
Seriously.
New clutch on the truck I drive costing me $700. Now I'm not really complaining because it is still cheaper than new car payments not to mention the difference on insurance and registration. I love the truck I drive, I really do.
But it sucks that it has to happen on the weekend of my Birthday. It just seems that no matter what I do my birthday almost always ends up either sucking or just being ok. I was gonna try and go away for Sunday and Monday but that's out now.
Again don't get me wrong my best friend dollpaparazzi always trys really hard to make sure I have a fun time but usually something happens and I end up depressed and surly. Often as not I end up doing what others want instead of what I really wanna do and it's my own fault because I don't push it. It's the passive agressive part of me I guess. Instead of putting my displeasure out there I end up closing down and just being really quiet. Or I try to put a good spin on things to make everyone else feel better about it but I just don't have the energy this time.
I know that by allowing myself to get down about this I am setting up the crappy weekend but it's hard to be upbeat when you're mostly broke. Once I pay for the repair, rental car, my Aunt's rent and my own rent I'll have about a $100 to last me until my next payday.
I used to really look forward to my Birthday but after the last few years I just think I wanna forget it all together. And one more time this is ultimately my own fault and I know it. SO mainly just venting and probablely feeing my age.
Seriously.
New clutch on the truck I drive costing me $700. Now I'm not really complaining because it is still cheaper than new car payments not to mention the difference on insurance and registration. I love the truck I drive, I really do.
But it sucks that it has to happen on the weekend of my Birthday. It just seems that no matter what I do my birthday almost always ends up either sucking or just being ok. I was gonna try and go away for Sunday and Monday but that's out now.
Again don't get me wrong my best friend dollpaparazzi always trys really hard to make sure I have a fun time but usually something happens and I end up depressed and surly. Often as not I end up doing what others want instead of what I really wanna do and it's my own fault because I don't push it. It's the passive agressive part of me I guess. Instead of putting my displeasure out there I end up closing down and just being really quiet. Or I try to put a good spin on things to make everyone else feel better about it but I just don't have the energy this time.
I know that by allowing myself to get down about this I am setting up the crappy weekend but it's hard to be upbeat when you're mostly broke. Once I pay for the repair, rental car, my Aunt's rent and my own rent I'll have about a $100 to last me until my next payday.
I used to really look forward to my Birthday but after the last few years I just think I wanna forget it all together. And one more time this is ultimately my own fault and I know it. SO mainly just venting and probablely feeing my age.