Wow I just never post anymore
OK, and Update, I am sorry it has been so long.
After being let go from the call center I took a few days to sleep in and relax before I went to work at the gym full time. Or close to it. I really like working there. it does make some social stuff like clubs and things a little harder because 4 nights a week I am off between 7:30 and 8:30 and then 3 days a week I have to be there at 5:30 AM or 6:30 AM but I am coping and I am sure in a little while I will get adjusted and find a way to work everything out. I predict a lot of naps in my future. I am also actually taking the classes they offer now which is great as I am actually LIKING the exercises and it might help the holiday weight gain. To help make up for the fact that the other employees are covering for me while I am in France I am taking an extra weekend shift in December which is another reason I am not doing Dickens Fair.
I am excited to go to Fair as a customer this year. I am going this weekend on Sunday, and I am going to try and go next weekend, hell maybe ALL weekends. I have a lot of Friends who want to go and want to go with me so it sounds fun. I am just worried it is going to not work with my work schedule, that they are going to do the whole "oh...meet us there" thing which I hate. But whatever. I am not sure if I am going to go alone or not.
Rocky is going well. I am training for another part but it is really hard. I am not sure why. OK, I am sure why: 1- we have a lot of great people and I want to get it right, 2- it is hard to do alone, I wish I had someone to train with, 3- My theater training is hard to get over and I am still struggling with just coping what I see and not giving it my own little "thing". Have asked a lot of friends for help on this and they have been very forthcoming.
After the crazy amount of burlesque work in October I haven;t had much this month. I am trying to get more things lined up for 2011 because I really love performing and go in to a funk when it doesn't happen enough. I am hoping more friends can come and show their love when it happens. May even have a few other projects in the works.
Currently my mind is pretty fully on going to France. I need to get some warmer clothes. The Frenchman reminds me all the time that it is much colder there. I am nervous about meeting his family. I am nervous about a lot of things but I am so glad that I can do this. I won't go in to to many details here as I know there are some who don't like reading the details of my love life. So on top of Christmas Shopping I have to do some personal shopping which to be honest I am not a fan of because I always feel like nothing fits, I look fat...you know the usual female insecurity.
Thanksgiving was a lovely time with the family. So much PIE!!! I am defiantly needing to hit the gym these days to work off all the food. I might be going back on Weight Watchers when I get back from France. I am struggling to get/keep my weight down. We will see how it survives 10+days in the gastronomic capital of the world. I am bring my fat jeans with me.
I am worrying alot about the future. I am re applying for Berkeley Rep and if I don't get it I am not sure what I am going to do. I have alot riding on this and things are still a mess. I am still having panic attacks , I haven't been telling my parents or my boyfriend about them because they don't seem to get it or care.
OK, that's all for now. Will keep posting soon.
XOXO
Me
After being let go from the call center I took a few days to sleep in and relax before I went to work at the gym full time. Or close to it. I really like working there. it does make some social stuff like clubs and things a little harder because 4 nights a week I am off between 7:30 and 8:30 and then 3 days a week I have to be there at 5:30 AM or 6:30 AM but I am coping and I am sure in a little while I will get adjusted and find a way to work everything out. I predict a lot of naps in my future. I am also actually taking the classes they offer now which is great as I am actually LIKING the exercises and it might help the holiday weight gain. To help make up for the fact that the other employees are covering for me while I am in France I am taking an extra weekend shift in December which is another reason I am not doing Dickens Fair.
I am excited to go to Fair as a customer this year. I am going this weekend on Sunday, and I am going to try and go next weekend, hell maybe ALL weekends. I have a lot of Friends who want to go and want to go with me so it sounds fun. I am just worried it is going to not work with my work schedule, that they are going to do the whole "oh...meet us there" thing which I hate. But whatever. I am not sure if I am going to go alone or not.
Rocky is going well. I am training for another part but it is really hard. I am not sure why. OK, I am sure why: 1- we have a lot of great people and I want to get it right, 2- it is hard to do alone, I wish I had someone to train with, 3- My theater training is hard to get over and I am still struggling with just coping what I see and not giving it my own little "thing". Have asked a lot of friends for help on this and they have been very forthcoming.
After the crazy amount of burlesque work in October I haven;t had much this month. I am trying to get more things lined up for 2011 because I really love performing and go in to a funk when it doesn't happen enough. I am hoping more friends can come and show their love when it happens. May even have a few other projects in the works.
Currently my mind is pretty fully on going to France. I need to get some warmer clothes. The Frenchman reminds me all the time that it is much colder there. I am nervous about meeting his family. I am nervous about a lot of things but I am so glad that I can do this. I won't go in to to many details here as I know there are some who don't like reading the details of my love life. So on top of Christmas Shopping I have to do some personal shopping which to be honest I am not a fan of because I always feel like nothing fits, I look fat...you know the usual female insecurity.
Thanksgiving was a lovely time with the family. So much PIE!!! I am defiantly needing to hit the gym these days to work off all the food. I might be going back on Weight Watchers when I get back from France. I am struggling to get/keep my weight down. We will see how it survives 10+days in the gastronomic capital of the world. I am bring my fat jeans with me.
I am worrying alot about the future. I am re applying for Berkeley Rep and if I don't get it I am not sure what I am going to do. I have alot riding on this and things are still a mess. I am still having panic attacks , I haven't been telling my parents or my boyfriend about them because they don't seem to get it or care.
OK, that's all for now. Will keep posting soon.
XOXO
Me