Maybe I am just a spoiled bitch....
Yesterday i was sick. I was VERY sick actually. As sick as I have been in a long time. Fever that got up to 102.3 (it is normally 96.5), dizzy, I saw a camel in the shower. Yes, I was hallucinating. My Sweetie came over and took care of me while I was sick. i think he felt guilt because he thought he got me sick but I don't think so. He arrived with chicken, carrots and potatoes and made me soup from scratch, held me while I laid on the couch blowing my nose, brought his lap top so we could watch "How I met Your Mother". He brought chocolate and made me home made cocoa. He even took a shower with me. He was here all day. During that time he watched me get worse and worse and go from mild I feel like crap to shaking and freezing under 3 blankets and a sweatshirt.
Today he drove me to work in my car and then came and got me when I got fired Laid off. He tried to make me feel better by laying in bed with me and watching some shows together so I could take my mind of stuff.
So why am I so hurt that he isn't coming to Rocky tonight or tomorrow? Particularly when I know he has a paper to write and needs to pack for moving this weekend?
I like to think that it is just I am feeling vulnerable since I got let go from the call center. Yes I hated the job but being let go sucks. Particularly when it is at 9 AM and I just walked it. I wish they had called me or something and mailed the check so i could have just slept in. I donno. I am alot more hurt then i think he realizes. I am also more hurt then he knows when I extend invitation to his roomies to my shows and stuff and they say know. I guess I get that it is not their scene or they are uncomfortable seeing their roomies GF doing the stuff I do, but...I donno. It is just I make an effort to try and get to know them and I feel like they just don't want me around. And now he is going to move to a place across town for a month before moving back to this part of it and the NEW roomies don't want me spending the night. Which hurts again. I am pretty sure now that his family is going to hate me; and so will his friends. I mean, if the ones here still haven;t warmed up to me after 3 months how can they like me in 10 days. I have tried talking to them, I made cookies, I brought over beer...I am just not sure what to do.
I don't know what to do. I am afraid to talk to him about this stuff because A- I feel bad complaining when he has been SO good to me and B- Well...See A
Today he drove me to work in my car and then came and got me when I got fired Laid off. He tried to make me feel better by laying in bed with me and watching some shows together so I could take my mind of stuff.
So why am I so hurt that he isn't coming to Rocky tonight or tomorrow? Particularly when I know he has a paper to write and needs to pack for moving this weekend?
I like to think that it is just I am feeling vulnerable since I got let go from the call center. Yes I hated the job but being let go sucks. Particularly when it is at 9 AM and I just walked it. I wish they had called me or something and mailed the check so i could have just slept in. I donno. I am alot more hurt then i think he realizes. I am also more hurt then he knows when I extend invitation to his roomies to my shows and stuff and they say know. I guess I get that it is not their scene or they are uncomfortable seeing their roomies GF doing the stuff I do, but...I donno. It is just I make an effort to try and get to know them and I feel like they just don't want me around. And now he is going to move to a place across town for a month before moving back to this part of it and the NEW roomies don't want me spending the night. Which hurts again. I am pretty sure now that his family is going to hate me; and so will his friends. I mean, if the ones here still haven;t warmed up to me after 3 months how can they like me in 10 days. I have tried talking to them, I made cookies, I brought over beer...I am just not sure what to do.
I don't know what to do. I am afraid to talk to him about this stuff because A- I feel bad complaining when he has been SO good to me and B- Well...See A